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Ok, I am all alone in a strange city, no friends, the family nearby doesn't give a damn, I am all alone. I am really feeling bad. Once again I am seriously thinking of ending it all.
Sure I could call life line, but what is the point? They are not going to give me a decent family, or make my ex partner come back.

It really does seem hopeless.

Life is not always a continum. Some days must simply be lived to connect with better days to come, or even that just may come. And better days will be more appreciated or perhaps even be better for having had bad days like this. One of the things I learned as a soldier.

I always think that tomorrow will be a better day, and it usually is.

Please don't give up.

The thing is, even if I trusted any of my indifferent family enough to tell them I don't think they would do anything helpful. They never have helped with anything.

My former partner was a nightmare. An abusive, brutal horror who finally ran off with someone else on my birthday. Even though I know that the person was horrible I feel so alone, I really have no one else.

The former partner has even taken my animal companions away from me. I can't bear to be without them and I don't know what to do, I don't know whether that person will keep them safe.

I feel like I should write a will leaving all my worldly property to the benefit of my animal companions, and then end it all. I don't know any other way I can look after them.

There is always someone out there who cares, even though you might not know it.

Need help? In the U.S., call 1-800-273-8255
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One thing you might not have considered is that you have some degree of independence. That and having your own place to live just makes life a touch easier when you're thinking of meeting people. You can have whoever you want round whenever you like and nobody can say a thing about it. As for your ex partner returning, you're better off without them as they're probably a sociopath given that they have no conscience. Seems to me that being rid of them would come under things looking up. Just find someone else. Perhaps your family isn't so indifferent as you believe - can you at least hang out with them if you want?

DON'T DO IT!! !! !! !! Satan is lying to you. God has a plan. Cry out to Him. You are precious to Him. Ask Him. Do it NOW!! !! !! !

I'm sorry you had your pets taken away, animal companionship can often be less difficult than human companionship.

I'm not gonna lie, your ex sounds like a real cock-magnet, I would rather be alone than be with a tremendous douche this Christmas. As for your family members that's a bit tough, I have a hard time helping people with bad blood in the family, cause well there is only one line of bad blood in my family, and we really don't talk about them much. All I can say is family is meant to help protect and guide you, not make you feel estranged on Christmas.

I can't tell you how you can make your life better, you need to figure that out for yourself, but I guess along the way the best advice I can give is "just keep on trucking!"

I am alone also sweetie.

No family, no friends where I am living, sat here by myself with not a soul to talk to.

No pets and a bottle of vodka for company (it is xmas).

I am sorry your ex left. It sounds like you are better off without them.

As to the pets, can you adopt another pet once you have grieved for the ones you lost? There are a lot of cats or dogs etc out there who would appreciate a loving home. They have no one either this xmas.

By the way if you would like a chat about anything, my email box is always open.

It sounds like your living on your own, that does give you some options.

Maybe just take a walk, or a ride. Go to a bar or something and have a drink.

Try looking at it this way.

Your in a new city, living on your own, your free of your past abusive douchebag, it's a new beginning.

Thanks. I am temporarily staying in the home of a relative but they went away for Christmas, to spend it with some family and didn't invite me, even though they knew I'd be alone.
There is other family nearby but they didn't invite me either. No one could care less.

I had to go away for a temporary 2 week job which has finished now. That is why I am in a strange city.

I just want to go home to be with my cats but that horrible ex has taken over the flat while I have been away and has threatened me, he said the cats will suffer if I come back, and he will cut off all the utilities in the flat.

I'm sorry things are so awful right now!

My own marriage fell apart 3 years ago, and it felt like my life got hit by a nuclear bomb. I've spent the past 3 years picking up the pieces, but some things in life are just really traumatic, and make you feel helpless and hopeless and alone.

I'm so sorry you're dealing with those feelings right now... It really does take time to move past a major breakup, and in the meantime you have to be gentle with yourself, and trust that you will get through this and find your strength again, even if it feels impossible right now.

Sorry he's being such a manipulative jerk about the cats, and using them as leverage against you... I hope they're safe, and I know it's got to be really painful for you to be without them! *hugs*

Thank you so much for your kind words. Today was another awful day. You know that feeling where it hurts so much that you can't even cry but tears run down your face anyway?

I can't bear it here, I am so lonely I really can't stop thinking about ending it.

I am going back home tomorrow, it is that or attempt suicide here.
The ex sent me another barrage of threats today but really, whatever he does to me is no worse than what I will do to myself if I don't get away from here.

Thank you so much for your kind words. Today was another awful day. You know that feeling where it hurts so much that you can't even cry but tears run down your face anyway?

I can't bear it here, I am so lonely I really can't stop thinking about ending it.

I am going back home tomorrow, it is that or attempt suicide here.
The ex sent me another barrage of threats today but really, whatever he does to me is no worse than what I will do to myself if I don't get away from here.