cant forget her.
its my first post here about it.. loved a girl in school.. am 25 now.. so its about 10 years back.. she was nice and all that.. but yea she got married to some one else and this all happend
before 10 years.. and all these years i have been living in a shadow .. burden that i have lost her.. i force myself to realise life is big.. optimistic find some one else and all that happy
thoughts.. but still like an involuntary action.. i get depressed every other random day for no reason... i go crazy of things.. smalll things .. and care a damn about the things
that make real sense.. i have a job.. not yet married.. financially stable.. i get crazy about things.. to purchase them.. gadgets in specific.. and the time i order them and they get delivered.. i
go crazy.. refreshing and checking the order status.. and when they arrive.. its nothing.. no sense of happiness.. its the same with girls.. when some one donest respond
after seeing all the messages, i go mad.. and its just a random girl that i have met some days ago.. and when things work out between us.. its boring and we breakup.. this happend
once.. so kind of very confused of whats worng with me.. i write diary about my self.. its like talking to my self.. and its gone huge.. like some 700 pages ..
cant stay idle for long times.. just want to mess up with some thing. and find a reason to be sad.. some one help me.. am not sure what help i need. so randomly confused
At least the same has happened to countless millions of folks. The infuriating "someone out there for everyone" is one of those competitive myths they want us all chasing after. Many aspies are single, it's part of us not to know how to connect with invisible unsaid availability that supposedly is sometimeas there at ever so just the right moment. It's the aspies who do marry who I have no explanation for.
Meanwhile, many married NT folks end up divorced, increasing from a third to a half the latest I hear. A famous single aspie who lived centuries too early to know it was Isaac Newton.
