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sly279
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19 Feb 2014, 4:21 am

I don't seem to belong anywhere, I some times wonder why I exist, existence just to exist, why.
I just seem to creep people out i suspect or annoy them.

feel i should stop checking here, but its hard for me to withdraw from any kind of social interaction even if minor, though maybe I'll just fade away like I've done on past forums. I mean i went like 2 years with very little people, though i guess technically i was in college for some of that. I'm afraid of what will happen when I'm truly alone, trapped in this prison of a room day after day. People lie and tell me I'm great, or message me on face book for reasons I don't understand, the old same questions, "hey how you" "have any luck with finding work" fake interest in me for what end I don't get. I'll stop now, going g back to my thoughts.



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19 Feb 2014, 4:38 am

It does not necessarily constitute a lie when people that tell you that you are great. You cannot assume they perceive you the way you do. This took me a very long time to figure out. It still makes me feel awkward when I get a compliment, but I accept it graciously. If your analyze your behavior toward other people, and then compare it to the way NT's treat each other you might find a lot more substance to what they are saying.

We will always feel disconnected, but it not because we are bad.......please always remember this.

Also, when people show interest in you, it might not look the way you assume it should. I have been unemployed for three years, and I wish some of the people I know would ask me those kind of questions.


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19 Feb 2014, 5:21 am

You belong i wrong planet at times I dont feel I belong anywhere so I go here!


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19 Feb 2014, 6:09 am

AspieOtaku wrote:
You belong i wrong planet at times I dont feel I belong anywhere so I go here!


+1

I feel the same too :D


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19 Feb 2014, 3:50 pm

sly279 wrote:
I don't seem to belong anywhere, I some times wonder why I exist, existence just to exist, why.
I just seem to creep people out i suspect or annoy them.
That's not true. You belong here! I don't know about the other places you visit but here you don't seem to creep out/annoy people.
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feel i should stop checking here
What, why?
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People lie and tell me I'm great
What makes you think they lie about it? Everyone has good qualities.
sly279 wrote:
or message me on face book for reasons I don't understand, the old same questions, "hey how you" "have any luck with finding work" fake interest in me for what end I don't get.
Why would they ask if they aren't interested?


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20 Feb 2014, 5:21 am

DaLoCo wrote:
It does not necessarily constitute a lie when people that tell you that you are great. You cannot assume they perceive you the way you do. This took me a very long time to figure out. It still makes me feel awkward when I get a compliment, but I accept it graciously. If your analyze your behavior toward other people, and then compare it to the way NT's treat each other you might find a lot more substance to what they are saying.

We will always feel disconnected, but it not because we are bad.......please always remember this.

Also, when people show interest in you, it might not look the way you assume it should. I have been unemployed for three years, and I wish some of the people I know would ask me those kind of questions.



some who have said it then stopped talking to me and said i was bad, so i don't know if I can believe anyone now. Cause I treat people with respect and go out of my way to try to make them feel good, while most people don't ?
I don't like getting compliments either, but then a little part of me wants some. its the same with my birthday, I want attention for it but i also feel it should be ignored. no its getting closer. I guess this could come from the fact that the first love i had forgot about or ignored it. but at least no suicide plan this year. kinda pushed one friend away cause of it last year. Birthdays suck.

i am bad though, i say the wrong things or do the wrong things some times, I mess up when i was just trying to help someone, i hide and can't speak sometimes which annoys people.

idk its really weird I don't know why she requested to be face book friends o.O people don't request to be my friends. now every week or so she'll message me or when i'd post sad stuff. o.O



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20 Feb 2014, 5:26 am

Andras wrote:
sly279 wrote:
I don't seem to belong anywhere, I some times wonder why I exist, existence just to exist, why.
I just seem to creep people out i suspect or annoy them.
That's not true. You belong here! I don't know about the other places you visit but here you don't seem to creep out/annoy people.
sly279 wrote:
feel i should stop checking here
What, why?
sly279 wrote:
People lie and tell me I'm great
What makes you think they lie about it? Everyone has good qualities.
sly279 wrote:
or message me on face book for reasons I don't understand, the old same questions, "hey how you" "have any luck with finding work" fake interest in me for what end I don't get.
Why would they ask if they aren't interested?


I'm not sure about that.


Because i don't want to creep people out or hurt people here. so i feel like just lurking which leads to just vanishing.


cause people lie to try to make others feel better. if i was so great why am i always alone.

society says we have to ?? would be my guess, its why in the usa people ask and keep walking but in other countries they would stop and listen to a person day when asked how are you. though that really only makes sense with when you bump into someone, i don't understand why they do it on the internet. I usually have to start conversations with people 99% of the time.



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20 Feb 2014, 5:55 am

I don't feel that I belong here either. I can't relate to anyone anywhere, even here. Here, I attempt to communicate sometimes, .. attempt to express myself sometimes. I think I pretty much fail at it.

But, this is a good place to find information, and news and links. And ..sometimes while reading posts I realize there are sometimes others who feel like they don't belong anywhere. Sometimes some peoples' messages say something just right and I feel like I am not totally alien.



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20 Feb 2014, 9:54 pm

yeah i get that. it can be so hard. i'll feel so bad sometimes i can't speak and even typing is hard to do. sometimes its just i feel to speak would be bad thing like i shouldn't ever speak, others i feel so drained moving is tough. its mental and a strange feeling, i know i physically can move, but it feels so difficult to.



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20 Feb 2014, 10:03 pm

I know that feeling. I also know that no one/nothing external of yourself will ever appease it. It's not so much finding the exact place you belong, but belonging in whatever your place, in any place.

I realize it may sound cornball and simplistic, but it really is true. Still working on it, myself.



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20 Feb 2014, 11:28 pm

Maybe we belong with the people who feel like they don't belong anywhere.



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22 Feb 2014, 1:54 am

sly279 wrote:
I don't seem to belong anywhere, I some times wonder why I exist, existence just to exist, why.
I just seem to creep people out i suspect or annoy them.

feel i should stop checking here, but its hard for me to withdraw from any kind of social interaction even if minor, though maybe I'll just fade away like I've done on past forums. I mean i went like 2 years with very little people, though i guess technically i was in college for some of that. I'm afraid of what will happen when I'm truly alone, trapped in this prison of a room day after day. People lie and tell me I'm great, or message me on face book for reasons I don't understand, the old same questions, "hey how you" "have any luck with finding work" fake interest in me for what end I don't get. I'll stop now, going g back to my thoughts.

This is how alphas are treated sometimes. No, you don't have to be dominant and it only makes you a leader of the same gender. Gay people included. Also won't say you're an alpha. Not sure, really. You find out. Or more likely, you're a normal person who thinks the world hates you. Well, it doesn't. Humans are surprisingly tolerant and don't reject people from groups. If they do, it's a misunderstanding. Generally when they get offended.



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22 Feb 2014, 3:38 am

oh if only I wasn't christian. //



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22 Feb 2014, 5:12 pm

does anyone else feel like the only escape to freedom is death?

If i wasn't christian(please don't turn this into a debate) and didn't believe in afterlife, I'd probably kill myself. this s**t is awful so going to nothing and not existing would be freedom.



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23 Feb 2014, 10:50 pm

the urges are back, the thoughts, craving. afraid. why carry on. just to wast resources better spent on others.