Am I a Hikikomori?

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I tend to shut myself in and isolate myself from others for long periods of time only to leave for work and preferably graveyard shift so i can deal with less people. I stop talking to my friends for months at a time and stay indoors during my days off never leaving the house due to high anxiety at times. I tend to get frequent anxiety attacks and bad flashbacks during late fall to mid winter. During late spring I try to get out more though but am exhausted at the end of the day and don't want to talk to anyone. I have issues trusting people I dont know and am sometimes afraid of them I tend to be very apprehensive and only talk to a select few people and thats only when people talk to me. I feel the world is full of hate and apathy, people always wanting to con, abuse and hurt you. I treat most people I dont know with the potential of doing all. I sometimes feel its best I shut myself in to avoid being hurt or conned by others its a very dangerous world out there. I prefer to stick to my comfort zones like watching anime and playing video games because they provide temporary escapes from the outside world. Whats more messed up is I can relate to Sato from welcome to the NHK to the point that most my life from my 20s till now is like the series. [youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r0Z2IJuS5Ks[/youtube] I do get paranoid too.

I've also been practically a shut in. The only times I really go out is to see a doctor or attend my alcohol rehab group 4 nights/week. Slowly, I think, the group is bringing me out of my shell. There's socialization I can't avoid and accountability I have to look up to. Who knows? Maybe I'll start going out with the meetup groups I join with but who's meetings I never attend.

I'm a shut in too i don't want to be though. I want socialization

I'm also a shut-in.

Your not alone. Money makes me associate with others.

I'm a shut in person as well. I just go to get groceries and the occasionally fast food meal. I'll probably never work. 😔