I'm Afraid I'm going to lose my gov't benefits

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I'm collecting welfare in NYC because I'm very depressed and I have a lot of health problems and I'm waiting for a disability hearing. They put me on a welfare to work program because they said I'm well enough to work. I'M NOT well enough to work. My depression has gotten worse. I think about killing myself all the time. I would've done so already if it wasn't for my OCD.

I panic whenever I have to leave my apartment and I have to deal with anybody so I haven't been to the work program in 2 weeks.

I'm afraid I'm going to end up like this man who starved to death after his benefits were cut.

http://bit.ly/1k8IRO9

I just started therapy at a new place because the other place I went to for over a year didn't help me at all. I'm also on anti-depressants. My meds were recently adjusted. I don't leave my apartment or talk to anyone unless I absolutely have to. I don't have any friends. I have a few Facebook friends but I'm not close to them and can't really talk to them about anything.

People at my church don't care about me. I don't want to ask for help because I don't know what kind of help I need and I know people are sick of hearing me complain. I'm always sad and miserable. It's so hard to pretend I'm not miserable when I'm around people.

I just can't function. I don't want to do laundry or even leave my apartment to buy food. My apartment is a mess. I get overwhelmed whenever I have to do anything. I just don't know what to do and I don't want to do anything. I can't imagine this will ever get better.

get a note from your shrink saying the reason you didn't come in was depression and OCD. (either one would be enough.) that should keep the benefits and the disability case flowing.

I see no indication of your age or how long you have been waiting for a disability hearing. I think you should be aware of the probabilities of being approved. I was fortunate in having ben approved right away at age 54 but people over 50 have a different set of standards. I don't know what I would have done had I not been approved. I can say with some certainty that I would not be here today. I was also fortunate in that I am a veteran and had the VA for heath care and they helped me when I was homeless. I wish I could be more encouraging. I can only say that I have been where you are and can empathize with your situation. Good luck. I wish I was better informed as to how people who are not as fortunate as myself get through the maze, especially with socialization barriers that Aspies tend to have. I am a recluse also.