just posted a reply to another post entitled "suicidal thoughts" please have a read of my reply. I would say that at the moment you have reached a hurtful and difficult place in life. it isn't just non-autistic people who are using this forum as a sex chat site. Just do what I do and carefullyselect the posts that you read and entertain. some of us are pretty ok 
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