Your not obligated forgive me but. Im sorry

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I feel bad, really bad I made generalized posts and asked stupid questions based on my insecurities, I have been bitter and paranoid when it comes to women esspecially NT women and I shouldnt. I have made crude remarks when I shouldnt my emotions get the best of me and sometimes I get tired of being walked on only resulting in me being mean and cruel myself. Maybe Its best Im a door mat then be an a**hole. I have been one the past few days and I feel bad for what I have said its not going to change anything though Ill be hated anyway so I deserved to be attacked and treated like garbage, I have been nothing but garbage all week. I dont blame you for being eternally hateful and unforgiving towards me I dont blame you for wishing death on me *no worries I will die some day so hope that makes you feel better* I am just saying I am sorry and sorry can only go so far so I am admitting I was wrong I have been foolish I have been a worthless sack of garbage not worthy of accomplishing anything for I am a nobody.

With all due respect, and keep in mind you haven't offended me and I have absolutely no idea who the audience of this post is, but you sound more sorry for yourself than whoever you're trying to apologize to. I've found from experience, it's a lot easier to apologize when you forgive yourself, rather than wait for others to forgive you and have them reverse your claims of calling yourself "garbage." It's a lot easier to just learn from mistakes and not repeat them again, and telling yourself it's okay, rather than saying "I'm garbage" and wait for others to tell you that you are, in fact, not garbage.

It was the recent posts and threads I have made in love and dating and womens discussion that led me to this, I made a lot of people mad, offended and wanting to have my head on a platter so as a result it is time for me to pay the piper and give them what they want. I give up I must take the bullet and be over with it. *no not a literal bullet its a metephor*

I am worthless I am nobody I am defective and not worthy to be happy for me to be happy would reslt in unhappiness of others! Some questions must not be asked some answers should not be adressed. I must accept the fact I will never live a happy life or be with anyone and let other people be happy and not make them unhappy as well just because I am unhappy. My feelings are not importnat, I am not important My opinions don't matter I am nothing, a nobody, I havent accomplished anything worth a while, I do not make 6 figures a year I am a worthless socially awkward shut in nothing more and nothing less, I am a peice of s**t and should have never been born!

I am not capable of doing anything< I am worthless and useless as a man and as an aspie I am a waste of DNA!

please don't be so hard on yourself, we all have our moments.

I agree with you; you are rude, crude, and socially unattractive.
Joking aside, One very inportant concept I learned when I did my student teaching was the instructor said that when we walk into the classroom, there are going to be 4 or 5 students that will hate your guts no matter what. You might remind them of a relative, neighbor, sibling, etc. So instead of trying to be liked by everybody just accept that everybody doesn't and move on.

Hey Mate, who does make six figures? some do most don't. Who does have a wonderfully active social life that requires 30 hours in a day? again some do some don't. I muddle by, pay my bills, try to mimic the behaviours of those around me, successfully sometimes, other times I get it disastrously wrong. The idea of the perfect life, the wonderful celebrity existence, the joys of fame and fortune are a construct. These ideas fill a void felt by the vast majority of the human population, why else do we have all these celebrity shows and magazines, why do we have all the "reality shows" and more to the point why is social media so vitriolic. It is vitriolic because pouring scorn helps people cope with their own insecurities.

From your original post you seem to have fallen into the virtiole trap. But, and it is a flipping massive BUT you have had the presence of mind, the morals, the ethics, the underlying foundation to your very being , that has allowed you to see that you have behaved in a way that offends your basic principles.

You stand like a giant above the foul individuals who rejoice in their bigotry, who lavish praise on themselves for delivering that "knock out blow". You stand tall above "right minded" people who although they mean well do not see the hurt they are doing.

Congratualtions AspieOtaku your are alive and conscious. You are aware of your actions and you try to address your failings. I take my hat of to you, I only wish more people were as "worthless" as you, maybe then our species could move forward honestly appraising our actions and making changes for the better.

Pick yourself up, maybe send apologies via PM to those whom you perceive you have hurt, and above all forgive yourself.

I can't remember ever feeling offended by you.

I do really stupid stuff, I say stupid things, I get annoying and weird. I get moody and paranoid sometimes. Sometimes I hate myself for it, I am never normal and I never will be I can only try to act as normal and comform as much as I can only to be emotionally drained at the end of each day. I have just been messing up the past couple days and have angered people with my stupidity, I feel ashamed and angry at myself right now!

I have a lifetime of such, you are not alone.

Nobody is a nobody.

I feel you. I think one reason I prefer the internet form of communication is that it gives me a chance to take a few breaths, then re-read what I wrote and try to find ways that it could be misinterpreted. I almost always have to change things. I work 5 days a week surrounded by people, so I definitely know how exhausted one can become after just trying to act like a typical worker bee. Some days I have to lie down when I get home and just try to stop thinking about things outside of my head for a while.



I would be more concerned if you were happy and excited that you had angered people.

Just remember that negative emotions give you an opportunity to assess and improve (but only if you take that opportunity). Most of my personal growth in life has come out of the shame, humiliation, idiocy, and anger that I have brought upon myself (most often unintentionally).

the people who feel their limitations and their flaws are on the right spiritual track, for evil people have no such dark nights of the soul.

Some of the things you said on previous posts may have hurt some peoples' feelings. Some people are very sensitive. And some people don't like being described as something they are not, like being called shallow stereotypes.

It seems your view of what females are like and how to interact with them is based off of a mix of getting 'educated' on the subject by watching lots of anime and You Tube jokes, and from bad experiences from attempting to interact with girls. From what I have seen of some anime, is that a lot of their characters are not realistic at all and are figments of story writers' ideas of what they might think would be funny or entertaining or just attention getting because they are so outlandish. Also being autistic can make finding friends or romance partners difficult. I know it can because I have troubles galore with both making friends and finding someone to have as a partner. I am socially ret*d and bad at reading facial expressions and body postures. Also, I don't think on the same frequency as any one else. It forces people not to understand me and me to not understand them. It is very hard and I screw up sooo easily, and real quick it is over with with that person. It is so bad I pretty much gave up on finding a mate. Dealing with the depression of trying to but not being able to connect, being rejected and degraded, and the helplessness and hopelessness in not having a chance at succeeding at it, and never having the normal future - like a house and a mate. At least I have a vehicle now. Better than nothing. I am forty years old and still mainly a loser.

Some people are jerks. You might be seeking after the wrong people. You might be attracted to jerks, or maybe the prettiest people. It seems all too often the good looking people are the hardest to get. Good looking people seem to have way more people that are interested in them, and an autistic person has to compete with all those other people with better social skills, that the odds are very daunting. NTs who don't understand aspies can be very mean and degrading and judgmental in how they react to an aspie's attempt to socialize.

I've often felt worthless, and I've had many people call me worthless time and time again, at school, in the neighborhood, in the family, it's been branded into my brain. Even one of my best friends got fed up and started calling me worthless over and over and gave up on me. You're not alone in feeling worthless and hopeless... hint. So many who post in The Haven.

I don't know how to help you with the issue. I couldn't even help myself.

I am sorry to those I have offended, I am sorry for making generalizations I don't always mean them I get frustrated and say stupid stuff. Not all women are monsters not all NTs are heartless, not all feminists hate men, not all feminists are femnazis. it was wrong for me to say that kind of stuff not everyone is a jerk, and not everyone is a monster out to get me. *sigh* Some NTs like aspies not all NTs hate aspies..I just need to take a breather at times when I get frustrated at times and not make stupid generalizations when it comes to that sort of thing. I am truly sorry at the bottom of my heart I was wrong I dont know if I could forgive myself but i will try.