wozeree wrote:
Was that some kind of incantation that you used that you had to specifically bargain four years of your life, or are you just kind of guestimating?
Weren't you not speaking to her when she was alive? I say that with all due compassion as I have a nonexistent relationship with my own mom and I understand your conflicted feelings more than you can know. Just thinking maybe you should give yourself a chance to relax and get used to the idea that she is gone and maybe it was her time to go because your desire to bring her back may be caused by emotional confusion at this painful time.
Yeah it was a special spell. I gave it up willingly, and no I didn't talk to her much lthough I talked to her every day. It's a wierd relationship, ok? Thats what we had. The day she went into the hospital, she was so sick, we actually talked about when she was dead. We talked about that a lot. I told her then, when she was telling me what she wants, where the f**k is this money coming from? And BTW, it's not up to YOU, it's up to me. Be glad I don't cremate you and throw you into the f*****g Gulf.
She never got that it was up to me when she died. I so almost want to do something to piss her off about it. But, I've complied with her wishes. Closed casket, we don't look at her. I so want to just have midgets coming in singing Ding Dong The Witch Is Dead, although I really do want that at my funeral.
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I'm giving it another shot. We will see.
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