Throughout the past weeks, with school work, technical theatre, and miscellaneous projects, I feel like my family is always distant from me.
My father wants me to be more responsive to him, despite of speech being an issue for me. When I do talk to him, he gets mad every time because he claims I'm not using the right tone.
My mum wants me to connect more, and focus on life with the family, but I feel empty with my (nuclear) family. I feel like expectations are just stacked upon me, especially being the eldest son in an Asian household. My parents also blame me for blaming others for my behavior and forbid me from being with my autistic friends because they think I will turn into a psychopath.
My sister is growing more distant because of her work. I want to spend time with her, but she's working or buried in social media.
My brother is always separated from me in a little way. The primary barrier between us is our friends. He doesn't appreciate my friends as much and he's always worried that when he's friends are around me, they'll think I'm weird; they like me just fine anyway for the most part.
What does it take to have good family relations?
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Shedding your shell can be hard.
Diagnosed Level 1 autism, Tourettes + ADHD + OCD age 9, recovering Borderline personality disorder (age 16)
29 May 2014, 9:21 pm
