Mad at my father

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Father's day is coming up and I have not been on the best terms with either of my parents. My dad in particular. My dad happens to be a photographer and took several pictures of models. While I was growing up, my dad did three model shoots for my first sister (She is the family pet). Then when I hit the age of 20, my youngest sister also got to model for some children's books.

I on the other hand he never worked with me on any model shoots because my dad refused because he did not have the tolerance.

1. I have always struggled with hyperactivity
2. He realized that I was different.

Therefore he felt that I was incapable of it. He never told me. Instead he often would make an excuse that I was either too old or there were not any projects at this time for my age group.

Either way it has left me jealous of my first sister and angry with him.

Even though I have mainly moved on with me life, it still breaks my heart every now and then.
How do I open up to to him that I have never really forgiven him without putting him on offense?

Maybe put it in a non-threatening way, like "you know, it always made me sad that I never got the chance to model for your photography." There was a psychiatrist who like to phrase things can you "help me understand". Maybe, "can you help me understand why the time was never right". Even if he gives a lame response, he will think about it and maybe later give a deeper answer. At least he will have to think about it.

I went with a free Father's Day e-card and I was able to let him know how I felt. I also was able to calm down and look closer at the situation. If I recall, my mom said that he did not have her model for any of his photography either.