I've gotten migraines my entire life, since I was a baby. My mother was worried about me because I almost never cried, or made any sound at all, except for when i would cry for several hours for no apparent reason. The migraines got worse up to sophomore and junior years of high school. I had a migraine, ongoing but of varying degree, for the entire two years. Around fall of freshman year is when they stopped going away, and fall two years later i started smoking weed and only get unpreventable migraines very rarely, maybe once a month. I usually can't even function when i start to think a migraine is coming on, I'll panic and feel tears welling up in my eyes, forgetting to breathe, i begin to palpitate and i get the need to run; along with the infinite feeling of defeat and hopelessness that comes only from being able bodied yet still unable to do anything to prevent more pain than I'll be able to comprehend. Writhing around, screaming until my throat is completely thrashed and I cant do anything but whimper uselessly while rolling back and forth in the fetal position. That's when it's the worst. The pain, I'm accustomed to; not being able to do anything about it, I just can't get comfortable with that.
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Benefits of Asperger's/Autism.^
20 Jun 2014, 5:44 pm
