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I am trusting I can post freely here without having to fear being banned for speaking my feelings. It seems I am being singled out all the time for my actions or even lack of here. I think it was difficult enough to be called a spastic, a bint and a b***h in public on here(which actually made me feel totally worthless) and find nothing was done until I said something(which left me feeling like I am considered such a f'ing lowlife that it didn't matter and was ok to just leave them there for all to see!) and now I am being singled out by a few just because I have a blogthing posting phase...no attempt is made to compromise, oh no, it is all out 'this is stupid' , or this is ridiculous etc... well, sorry, but I find a lot of the games rather ridiculous but do I make a deal about it, no I do not because I realise that those games might provide an escape for some just as the quizzes provide me with an escape at a very turbulent point in my life. I would be quite happy to have a compromise and have these quizzes in a separate section, but I feel as if I am being s**t on because, God forbid, I am engaging in something less than 100% intelligent and logical!! Am I predestined to be disliked wherever I go or maybe my reputation somehow precedes me? I just feel really crap now, and I do not see much point in posting anything more on here if I am to be slapped with endless limitations while others do not seem to be. If I do not post, no-one can get their jollies out of upsetting me, which actually usually takes quite a lot of effort on forum boards.

Well, I enjoy your blog quizzes. I do the ones that interest me, and if they don't I move right along.

I saw a thread that I personally wasn't too happy about in the General Autism Discussion section... but I thought you handled it very well. Sometimes the mods seem to take way too long to intervene in that sort of thing. With the exception of the being that started the thread, I don't think they are purposefully seeking you out. At least the one who did start it was banned.

Thanks for responding, I am just feeling so much personally right now. That whole thing made me feel totally worthless, not just in my own eyes, but in the eyes of those who did not respond to it or support me or get rid of the offending threads. I felt I deserved being called those things or something. The blogs, are an escape, and I suppose, just as when most get an interest, they like to share it with everyone else, which is actually an AS trait, when I do quizzes, I like to share them, and in a way it is a way of showing a little more of who I am, even if they are not accurate. It is me being me, and to call is names is to call me names and to leave me feeling stupid and pathetic for doing them.

No one deserves to be treated that way... I thought of responding to the thread, but I didn't want to feed into it. Posters like that love the negative energy it creates. So, I've found that even though it's hard to ignore- it's best not to respond to them.
I think there should be a way to report the offending posts like that. (If there is some method other than sending a PM to one of the moderators- I don't know of it) and that they should be deleted so that we all don't have to see them.
But definitely- you didn't deserve to be called those things!

The blog quizzes are fun. Definitely not accurate- but fun. And until there's a place for quizzes and personality tests, then I think they should be in the Random Discussion area. There are so many posts about games and other interests- why would it be a problem for them there?

I like your posts. Being new around here I miss a lot, and while I think some need behavior lesssons, the line between rightful self defense, and opinion is vauge. While some do act like fifteen year old boys with problems who have been labled, are taking mind altering drugs, and bear a resentment to everyone, on closer look that is just what they are, so there is nothing to say.

I have a large vocabulary, and no idea what a bint is. Some things I mark up to culture, or lack of it.

I am used to reading books for one good sentence, and I find you hit higher than that.

As for critics who show they do not understand what they are commenting on, who's vocabulary is from the gutter, each to his own.

I value your input much more than their's.

I saw some negativity and my only reaction was about the attacker, not about you. That's easy for me to say from all the way over here - I don't know if I'd be philosophical if I was going through it myself. But the fact remains, the negativity only shows that the other person is negative. It says nothing about you at all.

Once I was walking home on a mild, snowy, winter night. There was nobody in the world but me. It was quite beautiful and I wasn't walking very fast. All of a sudden some guy snuck up behind and started yelling in my ear - did I flip! I landed in the street, swearing like a stevedore. Then he saw another person and spent the next five minutes yelling about what a lunatic I am. I think it was pretty obvious who was the lunatic.

Same goes here. If somebody wants to be negative, it's not your problem. No reflection on you at all.

I enjoyed doing the blogthings quizzes...I think it can sometimes provide new perspectives about yourself or your life...It's hard...but I think important to have an unwavering sense of self worth no matter what people tell you or how they respond to you...And I don't think you're disliked here at all...

*A GREAT BIG HUG* Hope you will feel better soon. Don't let the Turkeys get you down.

Thankyou all. I always feel stupid when I post about my anger or when something has upset me as I do not want to stir trouble or anything, but I feel I have to speak when something is bothering me this much or it will just explode in an inappropriate way elsewhere which I don't want. The blogs are largely silly, but they give a little insight into others much the same as any personality test thing, and I like that. They do not involve getting into twisted knots thinking about things and they generally do not involve emotion or engaging with others, so they are a pleasant time passer and an escape from more intellectual pursuits. Inventor...thankyou....I am not entirely sure of the meaning of Bint myself, but I do know it is quite insulting to a female. And I abhor the word 'b***h'. It is such a harsh and hard sounding word to me and stings when used. My language, oddly, did not develop to this level until I was around 18/19. Before that, my language could be very simple and naive. I find your language skills to be very advanced also.

I wish, in truth that my innerself were less sensitive to words. You know, I asked someone before looking in this thread as I feared finding harsh words? I have such bad experiences with peoples' words being the cause of much pain that I now have a ridiculous fear of them. This leaves me feeling very pathetic as I should be able to overcome this by rationalising my fears, but it gets me each time. For that reason, I am often reticent to disagree with people or speak my mind for fear of the consequences. Now I am left feeling I cannot post anymore blogthings because I do not want to face anymore criticism or negative comments, even though they are comparatively few compared to those who clearly enjoy the quizzes as I do.

I did agree that the Mods took a longer time to respond than what should have been necessary, although time zones may have something to do with it. Still, when I was reading the thread, I thought "Arh, if only I was a mod and this would have been over AGES ago!"

I think Unknown was just having a bad day. What doesn't he get about the Random part of Random Discussion?

Hypersensitivity to criticism is a major problem for us. And we also tend to in varying degrees to be insensitive with our own criticism of others.

I'm amazed that we do not have much more conflict on this site. Myself I try to be nice no matter what unless I think the person in question is dishonest or a bigot.

In the case of Unknown he is just a very depressed young man (I think 14-15 years old). He needs positive feed back. I noticed at least one member was farther antagonising him. Thats counter productive. It just pushes the person farther in a corner. Though the person I'm thinking of has his own thread here on his own struggle with depression.

The solution is for us to recognize the pattern (see paragraph 1).

Understand there will be a massive negative vibe from the depressed.

Try not to take it personality. Hard to do but you will become much stronger.

I enjoy the blogthings. It's unacceptable that people are so hard on you for posting them. Keep posting them just to piss certain people off. I'm not very good at finding comforting words but I'm on your side.

I think it would be interesting if someone made a post that compiled the stats over the blogthings. Not many people post in the statistics section.

I feel that I'm constatnly walking on eggshells around here, because I'm sure that there some members who would love to get me banned. I have to be careful not to be too prickly.