Made a mistake at work today. Because of someone else's mistake i had to listen to some stranger talk for 1/2. Tried to get them off my ear and made an error and felt embarrassed in front of everyone. Tried to play off by saying: "anyone dealt with a customer that wouldn't let go" Nobody said anything, said my goodbye and left.
The night before, I asked a girl out I had met a few times. we walked and she pretty much unloaded her life story: Trying to run away the week before,depression and schizophrenia. I wanted to get the hell out of there ASAP. I saw a sad look on her face when I dropped her off. I did the stupid thing by saying "I'm just being polite" when she asked if I wanted a hug when I was standing at her door. I knew better but it just popped out of mouth like a whooping cough.
I saw a sad face on her look as I was leaving. I feel really bad rejecting her the same way I had been rejected by others for my Asperger's. But I just wanted to get away from all that. I thought to myself: "I have enough trouble dealing with people who want to be my friend but are too wild for me." I know her problem is clinical so that is why I feel bad about the whole situation. Now I feel obliged out of pity to give her attention.
08 Sep 2014, 4:01 pm
