Badly needing to vent right now, I'm apparently a cancer :'(

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In the last few years have been really struggling with regards to depression and being around people so have kind of holed myself away from almost everyone at home.
I have a support worker who has been helping me to try to get out more and on Thursday I finally managed to attend the first lesson of a year-long part-time course thanks to her awesome help.
It felt so good to make it home after my class, I was in such a happy mood...

And then I discovered that my 13 year old daughter has been chatting to and met up with a 19 year old guy who she met online. Naturally I called the police and that is being dealt with by them. I've been awake for about 50 hours straight at this point and I finally felt like I would be able to get some sleep with the progress I've seen on the case.
Stupidly I decided to check my Facebook account before going to bed. Right at the top of the news feed was a wonderful post from my brother "When I was 10 years old my mother was diagnosed with my sister" He got lots of likes on the post including from my other brother and our mum. They have never believed me about my AS or depression and just see it as an excuse to not work and that I purposefully forget their birthdays to hurt them. And now apparently I'm a cancer.

I'm ready to give up now, every time I even try to get back on my feet multiple things just come and knock me right back down again, each time knocking me further and further down until I just can see no way of getting out.
I just want to leave them all behind, leave them to their petty ignorance and hatred and just lock myself away where they won't keep chipping away at me.

*Sigh* I just don't know what the hell to do, guess I just needed to vent a little. Thankyou for reading

*HUGS*

That is disgusting, atrocious, inexcusable behavior. I highly recommend deleting your Facebook account, or at least un-friending anyone and everyone who upsets or harms you. You are not a cancer. If anything is, it's the deleterious effect that Facebook can have on people. I'm not saying there's no good in it at all, but far too often, it's a bastion of cyberbullying and drama.

If you want to leave them all behind (as in cut contact with them, not as in kill yourself or anything...), then you should. It's their loss if they can't accept and appreciate you.

Ugh. Sorry you're stuck with asses for family. That's just... foul. I mean, good grief. What's THEIR excuse??

If there were less people acting like that, there'd be less mental illness and misery in the world. What a shame they apparently don't think there's enough, they have to feed it.

Consider the source, dear one. Here's you, a responsible mum doing what she needs to do to cope with the all-too-common antics of a 13-year-old in a messed-up world...

...and here's these people, who have nothing better to do than insult someone who's working hard on being healthy and strong.

Being insulted by asses like that is a back-door compliment from the Universe. Your strength and intelligence offends their desire to wallow in stupidity and ignorance.

Yeah, I don't do the Facebook/Social Network thing. Why would I? I am not a social creature.

Anyway this is the place to vent. Hope you stay with the working on getting out more. You are your own person. That's the priority, you and yours.

Do ^this^.
Except for the "locking yourself away" part; just lock them out.

Don't do it meanly, though; there's no point in it. Nothing gets fixed in a family by fighting. Just do what I'm working on doing (it's a long-term project): Just politely remove yourself from their lives. Do it as quickly as you reasonably can. Obviously, this will take longer if you live with any of them.