About a year ago, I was at a convention in Detroit called the Midwest Media Expo where I met a girl who was one of the special guests with her group. We had pleasant conversation over the course of the weekend and became friends as a result. During that time, I've come to develop feelings for/care about her and planned on telling her about this next time I saw her. We don't get the chance to communicate much with each other and when we do it's not as personal. Last time we talked was briefly during an online game of Cards Against Humanity with some of her other friends. I was originally planning on seeing her at the next Midwest Media Expo in 2 weeks time, but financial situations beyond my control have resulted in me having to completely cancel my trip there. What's really hard is that it's been almost a year since I've last seen her and both of us have been through a lot in that time. I had thought that hearing her voice during the CAH game would be enough to hold me over until then, but now it's not even happening so hearing her voice isn't enough for me. I feel like I actually need to see her again and I'm not sure whether this is a psychological, emotional, or subconscious feeling to this whole situation. All I do know is that I miss her now more than I realized before and that I'm sitting here alone in my room unable to sleep.
26 Mar 2015, 11:29 pm
