FEELING FUSTRATED

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I don’t know what to do, I see my life wasting away with no clue on how to fix it. I graduated from one of the top Universities when I was 19, completed my master with a distinction at 21. Turned down an opportunity for a PhD despite an opportunity for scholarship.
I don’t know if any other person has the same feeling, will be 27 this April, but find it difficult to put my life on the right path. I discovered recently I find it difficult to focus, I get distracted easily both at work and home. I do not pay attention to details whenever I read or see a thing. I find things difficult to memorize and always unsure of many things. I am also very impatient and I make a lot of mistake when am asked to perform routine task. Find it difficult to challenge people and always end up accepting what people say to me, even when I know they are wrong. I don’t just have the voice and boldness to speak out. I am also very untidy and disorganized in the way I behave and my environment. When phased with little decision making I easily get confused. Currently at work I feel am not contributing any value to the project I am being assigned. I am a junior project manager. My boss sees me more like his messenger. Doesn’t give me any serious assignment.
I don’t not have a vision for my life, being struggling to write one but its been challenging. Don’t get me wrong, there is also the good side, I have some friends who love and appreciate me.
I even tried reflecting through my childhood to see what went wrong but can really figure out, although I see many of these traits in my mum whom I spent more time with. My dad is totally contrast from me.
My parents, siblings and friends think am perfect, they do not know about my problems. I want to change, I desire to change, I need a change, but the question is how, I have tried reading online, watch coach videos on YouTube, attended motivational classes yet no solution.
Have even prayed about it yet no solution, its like I come to work daily with no objective.
Anyone with advise, really need to leave this black hole.

I've had dysthymia since I was a child and I'm now 26, so I can relate to how you feel about things not working out and all. If you don't like your job, perhaps you could find another one. If you have the money, I would suggest travelling for a while, especially overseas. That can certainly make you stand back from your life a bit, help work through things, and assess what's important to you and what you want.

I recommend some sort of volunteer work. Especially with animals. Check out the local animal shelter. Something you can look forward too. It sounds like you don't have an interest or activity that you look forward to to pull you along.