Their suffering makes me happy.

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I tried calling communicating with my brother via facebook im about the fact that I will not establish any kind of relationship with my mother until we talk about the fact that she was not able to be a capable parent. The reason why is because she has Aspergers as well. My brother who did not get the AS gene passed to him will protect her against anybody who even TRIES to talk to her about her actions and her behavior. Deep down he knows she is mentally ill but will not talk about it. In my mother's side of the family it is the deep dark secret that nobody wants to talk about. But I absolutely refuse to just forgive and forget. I can forgive but I can't forget if she would sit down and talk about it.


About a week ago I learned that a coworker of mine had suffered a loss in her family. Her sister's stepson died of a drug overdose. The neighborhood that she along with the rest of her family live in was one that I lived in as well for many years until I moved. Naturally I offered my sympathies as any normal person would....to her face. But to myself I was overcome with joy. The neighborhood that she lives and I lived in at one point caused me nothing but pain, misery, and heartache. It neglected me and my needs. Every day that I went to school I faced bullying, neglect, and discrimination. And I don't give a s**t if the school board along with the rest of the neighborhood did not know about it at all you still don't do things like that to a child.


Now this area is faced with a heroin epidemic and that makes me want to jump for joy.

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I suspect my mother is on the spectrum as well. She has always struggled with life and with raising me.
I have no desire to chat with her about it. She did the best she could. We have a decent relationship now. Rehashing wrongs from the past would not be helpful.
I'm not sure why the suicide of this guy makes you happy. Although I understand your hatred for an abusive environment.

If the guy didn't personally cause you any harm, I don't see the sense in feeling "good" about what happened to him.

It is a horrible thing to think. Which is why I am going to talk about it with a professional today.

I hope all goes well with the therapist, JohnConnor.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schadenfreude

The Germans had a word for it first..