Anxiety and Stress about Disability Forms

Post Reply New Topic

I had a recent topic about receiving a letter from Social Security team in Arkansas about them checking my case which basically is the standard check up everyone that has disability gets (either 2, 4, or 7 years depending on the diagnosis which mine was 7 years)

..Well I received some forms to fill out and send back which ask why do you need disability and do you have these social problems, and a separate 2 sheet form regarding pain like asking "where is your pain?", and "how long does this pain last?". which I out down "Does not apply, Autism does not relate to pain" on each question because it asks I leave nothing blank . basically I feel good filling it out and how I answered and pointed out I have Austistic Aespergers, Antiphospholipid (Lupus related/Antibodies attacking each other causing me to have thick blood and ended up having 2 strokes in my lifetime thus have to be on blood thinners for the rest of my life), and some loss of my peripherial vision due to my second stroke, and how I was fired from my job because I wasn't a good fit for them.

After pointing those things out I feel those alone and my answers where my Aesburgers would affect me sociably should be enough to continue. But I keep both sides on how its easily to continue once your in but also hearing horror stories on how they accuse legit people of lying all of time and ask for Proof when we don't HAVE actual proof of our diagnosis.

A lot is riding on making sure I can continue, because I cant maintain a steady job (If I lose interest in a job it goes all down hill and I would either quit or get fired. I can do Temporary jobs if available like paid volunteers for a event.) and a living without it and feel if I get denied I one day would be homeless and..well I guess from there you can see why I am stressed and having some anxiety.

Basically I feel the SS/government just sees everything Black and White and not see any grays where my situation is chop full of it and reasons..If this goes south its all over, I literally would be a burden on everyone.

Also I am asking all religious people (doesn't matter what religion it is as we all worship a divine being just a different face) if they could pray for me that this goes through without any problems. and to give who don't worhip or are Atheist just wish me luck. I could really use it.

I am sorry if i'm really blowing this out proportion if it is really is as easy to continue as I hear; I just cant help it.

I hate government paperwork, too, it always makes me sick with anxiety.

As far as pain goes, I do find that my autism causes me pain. Often sounds strike me as painful, like being shocked - someone coming up behind me and startling me can feel that way, too. Its not a pain like a backache, that you can take medication for, but it still hurts and its directly attributable to autism. Noises like that that are part of your environment (like construction outside, or delivery trucks or sirens) keep a person rattled and stressed for days on end and the tension can lead to fatigue, exhaustion and emotional duress.

Also constant anxiety and panic attacks are mentally painful and can last for days on end. The pain caused by autism may not be the types of pain people normally think of when they think of broken bones or wrenched muscles, but it is very real, so don't short sell yourself by forgetting to call it what it is.

I guess I could of answered it like that, but it looked like from the form like it was asking about physical pain not mental. But its too late and now I am more worried : (

When I asked my Sister and Grandparents about those questions they suggested that I write that down because most of the time I am really sensitive but it doesn't give me actual hurting pain, but If I was allowed to put down when I am stressed or have anxiety I would have but there a area for that, which is why I assumed those two forms meant any physical pain...but if I did it doesn't feel like its the right place to put that down, but that's just me and I hope they understand and my somewhat legible handwriting. Its not the worst but not average either..

God I still fell stressed and anxiety..I don't know if I am supposed to receive a letter, call, or message saying they are continuing or not. It's killing me. Can anyone else who had to deal with this tell me if I am making a big deal out of nothing or not?.

I just wish they continue it and I wont have to deal with this for another 7 years, that way I would at least know how bad or simple it is if I come across this next go around..I hate not having any physical proof to show I have Autistic Aesburgers. I only know is the Court and SS should have it on file..