And people wonder why I feel anxious about going out!

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Talk about being in the wrong seats at the wrong times on the buses yesterday! Jeez! Firstly, I was on a double-decker bus (haven't rode one of those in ages), and to my amazement I was the only one sitting on the upper deck, so I sat at the front and put in my earphones and relaxed, enjoying the lovely view of the countryside as I went along. Then we came to a bus stop where two women and two toddlers were waiting (yes, every time people get on the bus with kids it always has to be toddlers - my worst age-group of kids!). One of the toddlers was in a pushchair (stroller), and so I assumed they would sit downstairs - which they did. Then about 10 minutes later the same two women and the two toddlers all suddenly started coming up the stairs, and although the top deck was completely empty and so there was ample choice of seating, one of the women and the toddler came and sat in the seat right next to me, then the other women (carrying the other toddler) stared at me as if to say ''can you move so we can sit there??'' So basically I was turfed out of my seat, which I always was taught was rude to make somebody feel forced to give up their seat when they were there first, when there are plenty of other seats available. So, feeling undignified, I got up and went to the back. I don't mind where I sit, but it was the principle of the matter what irked me. Plus they were foreign, like Polish or something. I couldn't be bothered to argue and cause a scene, so I just let them win.

So then I got off the bus in the town I wanted to get to - and the town was absolutely PACKED with hundreds of crowds of people all standing about as if they were waiting for a carnival or something. I got off the bus and quickly waited at the bus stop for the next bus to take me to my boyfriend's street (this journey was shorter). I stood patiently at the bus stop, but I felt I was having a bit of a panic attack inside because of so many people everywhere, and everyone had kids what were excitable and running about and bumping into everyone, and people were standing right in my personal space which made me feel uncomfortable and agitated. Then finally the next bus came, and everyone pushed on before me, even though I had been waiting the longest. There were lots of free seats, but I chose to sit at the front because I was going to be getting off very soon and I like to see where I am going. I had a lot of bags, and one of the bags had a breakable item in, so I held it on my lap, and my handbag drooped on to the seat next to me. Then this young-ish man got on with a young girl, and she sat on a seat facing sideways near me, and he glared at me and slurred ''that is a double seat you know!!'', to which he was implying that he wanted to sit next to me. Then I heard the girl say ''she's got loads of bags - why don't you sit over there?'' So he did. There were empty seats directly behind me, and this man wasn't disabled or elderly or had loads of bags, and so he didn't need to make me feel awkward like that, especially when there were other seats available they could sit on if it's that much trouble for him.

I finally got to my boyfriend's house, only to realise that I had forgotten to buy a drink for us (not alcohol). He was still at work. But I decided not to go back out that day, being so everywhere I went I was in the wrong place as usual. I began to feel angry with myself.

Rant over.