I'm almost always bored and emotionless?

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Hi,

in the past few months I noticed that I almost always feel bored, kinda empty and emotionless. I don't have anyone I would honestly call a 'friend', though I get along well with my coworkers and have a couple of other aquaintances and we often do something together. It's just like I don't really feel anything for people any more. I can say whether or not I like a person and whether or not I would like to be in their presence right now. But I can't say that anyone really matters a lot to me. I don't think about them or what they are feeling much.

The other, similar issue is that I am not very interested in anything at the moment, my life feels boring and without significance. I do look forward to my weekly singing lessons and sometimes to special events like playing pen and paper or going out. But I do not have any real goals that I'm invested in or things that I really love to do. It's like I just don't feel much either way about what I'm doing on a normal day. Work is alright, pretty relaxed at the moment since there's little to do. However I don't sleep so great at the moment - fall asleep too late, wake up too early - and often have trouble getting up in the morning. I need about 10 hours of sleep to really feel awake which just isn't possible during the week. I sometimes call in sick although I'm not because I just can't get myself to leave the bed or house, not so often that it's unusual though, since I am almost never actually sick. When I come home and have no special plans I use the computer a lot, read or watch tv series but somehow nothing can really grab my attention. I cannot even watch movies since my thoughts trail off and I cannot concentrate properly. Sometimes I go out running which used to be fun, but at the moments it's just a chore.

I haven't really been happy in a while, my standard emotion since a few months is neutral, empty or somewhat sad. Like I'm just going through the motions mechanically. Something's missing but I can't exactly say what or why. I don't think I'm really depressed because I used to have severe depression several times in my childhood and youth and it was so much worse, I wanted to cry all the time and that's not the case now. Just the lack of emotions and feeling without energy and sometimes sad.

Is it normal to feel like this sometimes? Or should I get some kind of help?

it's normal to fell like that sometimes.
'Help' might help you develop some drive in some direction.

But I can relate, actually, and am not sure what to do myself. work, sleep, meet people I like, but still feel ... ambitionless. Not depressed, but realistic about being one of 7 billions on a rotating rock in vast, empty space.

Probably we should find things of significance to us. I wish I had a garden to tend to.
Ever considered running a marathon? it's as good a goal as any other, and running is supposed to be healthy and mood-lifting. I think that's my advice, to both of us. well, I broke my foot last week, which doesn't help at all, so you got a head start.

what do you think?

If this condition is bothering you then you do need help. When a particular crisis makes us sad and disgusted from within then it is the time to seek help. After reading your post, it seems to me that you are not happy with your condition. If I am not wrong , then you seem to be unfocussed and restless. You are not able to derive pleasure from anything-something like Anhedonia. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Anhedonia
Yet, it is normal sometimes. In some people's life, it comes and goes, in phases. Just see that it does not last too long.
In my case, I force myself to be aware whenever that happens.We may not like to do something but for our own good,we have to push ourselves sometimes. Sometimes also due to too much stress, ill -health, sensory overload, spending too much time in a boring/mechanical environment or being with negative/depressed/bored people- we might lose our sensory qualities of feeling.
Are you experiencing any of these in particular ? Time to get out if possible.
What are your special interests ? Maybe time to develop it again or start something new and something you have not tried before. I used to watch World Cinema/movies before, now I like watching 90s MGM movies. Sometime earlier, it was those vintage movies of Clark Gable, Betty Davis, etc.