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I've been through so much s--t that I can't pin the blame to one (or two) teachers anymore..it was still one of the earlier and more devastating instances but it no longer only as much due to those experiences.

I hate this sh***y little neighbourhood. I can't even sleep here. And I get barked awake at 8 by Mrs Quackers. Or I oversleep til 10 cos of the cat and the cold.

I tried to focus today, really focus. Submit my work. Instead, I pressed 'no' when it said 'do you want to save your work'. Of course this is after I deleted it from the unsubmitted file.

I would like to say I'm a writer but since living here, it's increasingly difficult to send anything off.

Assertion is boring. Assertiveness is boring.

Those requests to click stuff to make sure you are not a robot when posting stuff on this site.

I’m just so f*****g sick of this. He’s never gonna love me back and I think he may be dead.

Like I try to forget about it but I can’t deal with this kind of pain. I don’t know if I could ever love anyone else.

I'm fed up trying to be two people. Who am I? The person I am when I'm alone, happy and dancing? Or the person she brings out in me when she brings out her barbs and arrows?

What I keep going on about and what I've been going on about for over a decade now boils down to...

There are certain people in both the underclass and the upper class/celebrity class who don't think the rules of behaviour we have established as a society apply to them in the same way they apply to regular working class/middle class people. Like all the morality has to be in the middle.

Certain under class people just don't care, probably because they see no point. Life hasn't been nice to them so why be nice to others?

Certain rich people don't care either, they just give a small percentage of their income to charity which looks big to other people then carry on hurting others, in big deal ways.

I know this is a generalisation which is why I keep saying 'certain' but I do think it's a class thing affecting the top and the bottom.

Open letter to someone in the world from someone in customer service and who has very strong olfactory sensitivities:

If you smoke heavily and past the point of being able to smell yourself, you stink . You reek. I'm talking about the people who smell like they've bathed in cigarette tar. The real hard core lifelong smokers you don't see around very often. The ones whose tobacco smoke smell is so strong that it actually makes my nose run.

Also, if on top of that you splash on a ton of cologne, you smell even worse. You're offensive in that respect.

I will fault you less for the body odor (B.O. as in onions) that you also have and are probably trying to cover up with your cologne, but the fact is, you have a trifecta of reek.

It's been an hour and your smell still permeates the air and even angered co-workers who are not sensitive to smells, with the one who helped you saying she thinks you actually gave her a headache.

I could not help during the time you were in the workplace after a time from making audible noises of disgust and anger.

I posted all my rants in wp addicts thread but they should have been put here.

I hate everyone except kids n animals

I hate your guts, stay the bleep outta my life! Nothing's changed these last 15 years, so get stuffed

-_- ...my parents often watch firnge and pseudoscience videos via a Youtube connected PS3..aliens, Illuminati, possible 'skeletons in the closet' related to Catholicism, Reptilian ppl, Merppl, time travellers and now currently flat Earth theories when Netflix and it's schlock isn't even too appealing..goodness knows she's resistant to us telling her to watch something else.

I remember my mom once arguing with my dad and her erupting and saying that it's better than misspending money by going to a casino. What I once said about the connection btw boredom and depression and in an unwitting 'underclass/working class' way I dread my parents being soon subject to it.

They prefer watching things on a larger screen and are probably more used to watching things which are 'provided' to them like at a buffet rather than conjuring up ideas as to what to search. This is significant--that generational difference btw looking at what is already there rather than having something in mind you are fueled/motivated to look up. The indifference to not change that habit is deadly as far as health habits go. The indifference to not change that habit is deadly as far as mental health habits go.

Going after things which confirm what you believe about life can be dangerous esp. if you grew up in an improvished 'struggling immigrant' household which makes you more often have an antipathy of risks. Unlike my parents though, that antipathy doesn't mean following conspiracy theories but it does mean sporadic bouts of 'the universe is conspiring against me' self-hatred which Ligotti brought up in his audiobook and which even I learned has more to do with the nature of consciousness being prone to understanding pain/cognitive distortions than de facto power structures overlapping with possibly preternatural stuff.

>: / ..https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AYkhlXronNk

epistemic responsibility, epistemic responsibility,epistemic responsibility,epistemic responsibility,epistemic responsibility,epistemic responsibility,epistemic responsibility,epistemic responsibility,epistemic responsibility,epistemic responsibility,epistemic responsibility,epistemic responsibility,epistemic responsibility,

Poor ppl don't ever seem to understand it as that 'boring' thing you need to kick the a-- of social mechanisms which keep you under your thumb.

That being said I am not saying that a majorly/uncannily reliable form of empiricism like science 'is better' but I would like to safely say that I hope that ppl realize how much important detail I am skipping out on if I 'plainly' say that I think that religion makes ppl irresponsible.

How if that 'energy' was shifted to emotional regulation, emotional self-understanding and introspection..

-_- ...my parents often watch firnge and pseudoscience videos via a Youtube connected PS3..aliens, Illuminati, possible 'skeletons in the closet' related to Catholicism, Reptilian ppl, Merppl, time travellers and now currently flat Earth theories when Netflix and it's schlock isn't even too appealing..goodness knows she's resistant to us telling her to watch something else.

I remember my mom once arguing with my dad and her erupting and saying that it's better than misspending money by going to a casino. What I once said about the connection btw boredom and depression and in an unwitting 'underclass/working class' way I dread my parents being soon subject to it.

They prefer watching things on a larger screen and are probably more used to watching things which are 'provided' to them like at a buffet rather than conjuring up ideas as to what to search. This is significant--that generational difference btw looking at what is already there rather than having something in mind you are fueled/motivated to look up. The indifference to not change that habit is deadly as far as health habits go. The indifference to not change that habit is deadly as far as mental health habits go.

Going after things which confirm what you believe about life can be dangerous esp. if you grew up in an improvished 'struggling immigrant' household which makes you more often have an antipathy of risks. Unlike my parents though, that antipathy doesn't mean following conspiracy theories but it does mean sporadic bouts of 'the universe is conspiring against me' self-hatred which Ligotti brought up in his audiobook and which even I learned has more to do with the nature of consciousness being prone to understanding pain/cognitive distortions than de facto power structures overlapping with possibly preternatural stuff.

>: / ..https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AYkhlXronNk

epistemic responsibility, epistemic responsibility,epistemic responsibility,epistemic responsibility,epistemic responsibility,epistemic responsibility,epistemic responsibility,epistemic responsibility,epistemic responsibility,epistemic responsibility,epistemic responsibility,epistemic responsibility,epistemic responsibility,

Poor ppl don't ever seem to understand it as that 'boring' thing you need to kick the a-- of social mechanisms which keep you under your thumb.

That being said I am not saying that a majorly/uncannily reliable form of empiricism like science 'is better' but I would like to safely say that I hope that ppl realize how much important detail I am skipping out on if I 'plainly' say that I think that religion makes ppl irresponsible.

How if that 'energy' was shifted to emotional regulation, emotional self-understanding and introspection..

Once again a misunderstanding as to how to post things here almost made me do a duplicate posting. I was bordering on confrontational and using euphemistic words in English when explaining the housing application I recieved to my mom. I still don't want to do online job searching today. Not really.