I just cut myself...

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My mom wants me to get a certain job, even though I don't think I'm ready for it yet. I would rather get a simpler job first, even though I would work less and the hourly pay would be less. Just thinking about that job that I hate made me so frustrated. I wanted to hurt myself so badly, just to get my mind off of the emotional turmoil, so I cut myself, by accident. I started scratching my neck until it bled, and in public no less! (I was doing my not-so-daily run outside when I broke down.)

My parents never understand when I complain about stressful situations. They said that they'd get me a life coach or a therapist if I either proved myself competent enough to keep a job, or proved myself too incompetent to keep a job for too long. I already got the boot twice, but that doesn't seem like enough to convince my parents that I have extreme issues that might be resolved if a third party intervenes. What am I supposed to do?

Tough question. I don't recall ever losing it while working out before so perhaps that's the tangent I should stick with; perhaps your semi-regular run isn't quite handling the tension. Sometimes occupational stress, especially when there's family involved, only starts in one's mind and quickly escalates to take control of the nervous system. You might need more physical diversions to keep your mind off such callous nonsense. Perhaps you could mix in some bike rides or something like yoga if a relaxed pace is helpful.

Getting parents to understand your work situation is a full time job. Provided you can find a less demanding job that you can learn skills you want from, no matter what the pay is your parents shouldn't hold anything against you if you can point out you're working on qualifications for what you really want to be doing.

What kinds of jobs did you have? I was told my former boss thought I was rebellious and intimidating and waited until my contract expired because a lawsuit was feared (on multiple occasions, I proved that I am more legally adept than my boss and his lawyer).

I have a different job, for now. I'm a part-time online math tutor, still waiting for the summer semester to start. I'm sorry for not mentioning it sooner. I've been out of sorts lately.

I've badly bruised my knuckles various times by hitting hard walls...which then makes it hard to use.

You mean it made your knuckles hard to use, or it made your walls hard to use?
Just kidding, I know how you feel. I've been known to hit my head against walls when extremely frustrated. This tends to tick off my mom, who seems more worried about the wall than about my own well-being.