Friends - I'm older than you and can say that I have come to terms (for the most part) with who and what I am. Instead of trying to want friends I've realized I'm actually happier when I'm alone, and when I do spend time hanging out with someone I keep thinking I can't wait to get home and be alone. Once you accept yourself and your limitations and stop trying to be who you're not, it does get better - not great, but much better.
Grades - WHY do you think above average grades won't last? I just finished another Masters with a 4.0 GPA.
Think of an exam like a game. Once you're in your field it's likely you'll have to do CEU/CME classes forever to keep certification (don't know what you're studying).
Hopelessness - As far as wanting out, well yeah, I feel that way too sometimes, but I think most people do. My husband was a quadriplegic. Whenever I was feeling sorry for myself he'd say, "How may fingers am I holding up?" Of course he couldn't hold up any. Put it in perspective. Instead of thinking about yourself, try to turn it to what you can do for others with that energy. I'm a cancer survivor and am writing a book. Also being in the medical field it will hopefully be helpful. Maybe nobody will read it, or maybe it could help just one person.
Summary - Having said all that, I am not minimizing what you're feeling and am really sorry you're feeling so hopeless at the moment. You're not alone and I will pray for strength for you.
04 Jun 2015, 8:45 pm
