There is a trip I go to with my friends in 5 days.
It is an event in about 30kms wide area around a city 50kms from where I live. There is a lot of spots that hold different activities on different times and there is a lot of free buses that go rounds between the points. Many of the activities overlap and it is impossible to attend all.
There is no specific plan - every group chooses which activities they want to attend and its up to them how they get there and if they manage to get there on time. Some activities must be booked in advance too.
My problem is we don't have a plan yet and I don't feel like I can rely on my fiends about that. They just tell me "lets go to the event!" and "we will see what we are going to do once we get there". I feel anxious. They haven't even decide yet where and what time we are going to met!
I managed to study the event website and make a plan sketch myself but there is still so much unknown in it...
Everything would be easy if it was just my best friend and I - she got parents that give us a ride if we fail with the buses schedule and can even ride us back home from any point at any time so I don't mind just following her wherever she wants to go because I know we are both save as long as I am with her.
But my second friend is going to get to the city on a bike and leave it on one of the spots. So I don't know how and what time he is going to get in a spot I choose as meting spot and if we mess with buses he might end up unable to get back home so I try hard to find a spot where such risk is minimal but it brings a lot of changes to the plan. I tried to discuss it with him but he said "If it happens it's my problem, not yours" but I still worry.
And I also... I was initially planning to go on the trip with just my best friend but the other friend said he wants to join us and I couldn't find any good reason to refuse it so I agreed. I don't want to spend more than a few hours with him. I want to spend some time alone with my best friend.
I wonder if there is a way for us to split during the trip without hurting the other friends feelings? I assume we probably are going to split in the evening because he needs time to get home on his bike but I cannot be sure about that. Maybe he decides to stay with us as long as he can and then take a taxi to the spot his bike is and then ride it in middle of night or something. He is unpredictable. Last time he ride his bike 35kms in 28*C heat with a backpack of 30kgs weight just to see me (I am his crush - but I don't love him back) so I have full right to worry about what idea he is going to get this time...
It's making me anxious.
08 Jun 2015, 11:26 am
