"What is wrong with him? Is he ret*d?"

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I think the subject of this thread alone is worse than the F-bomb, and the N-word combined... this has been said to me most of my life.

So maybe I should actually introduce myself:

My name I've chosen is based on my given name during a spiritual journey into discovering my Guardian Spirit. I am in my late 20s, Half European decent, Half Native Apache. I was diagnosed with Aspergers in 2003 and have seen several therapists to help me cognitively deal with having Aspergers. I discovered not though official diagnosis, but through self-awareness and some SERIOUSLY CONFUSING mental techniques, I am Lysdexic (dyslexic to those who arent. lol)

I keep seeing this site come up in my quest to understand myself and why society does not want to accept that Aspergers/Autism is a real condition. Even spending time on the armpit of the internet and seeing the relentless waves of basement dwellers start Aspie/Cringe Hate threads didn't help, thus I seeked out a more constructive Haven, and I wasn't displeased with what I had found.
It was tough growing up hearing that horrible word being used in the context of who you are. I spent years trying to figure out why people treated me so differently.. It was constantly remarked that I 'talked too much' and I seemed "Bright" and my eye contact was null and void. I just didn't see any co-relation between the two subjects and for years I felt like well... you get the idea. I don't believe it is how I appear entirely, but having almost two feet of hair and being a male doesn't help the judgement by superficial people...

Anyways lets cut to the quick: In recent times, I have been really having issues with my insecurities and friendships/relationships. Both my closest friends since Elementary school moved out of state, I recently broke up with a relationship of 5 years, I had to reluctantly sell my first Stick car that I spent lots of time love and money putting a new engine into.
This last fact alone has made my new job working at a hospital a test of mind and body daily... if i actually had full time work... super frustrating. This has really taken its toll on me and i am just plain not happy with my self or my choices since high school.

Not exactly an upbeat way to introduce myself to a bunch of strangers I understand, My natural Sardonic tone has been concerned for sometime that I show signs of Depression, Anxiety & Paranoia. Even typing out and admitting this has been hard, and I understand the path to healing is sometimes paved on just admitting you have problems or just talk about it.

I look forward to meeting new people and making friends here, so hello all and pardon my gloomy nature.

I'm sorry to here what you've been through.

Welcome to WP.

My son has had to deal with similar stupid/offensive questions, and malicious comments too. He's pretty diplomatic about it but it makes me want to thump people. Welcome to WP x

Its terrible, I'd usually get so offended I either snap at them or I just put my wall up. It was worse when teachers would force eye contact or harass me. In my parents case it was the WORST because they would have 6-7 drinks & a handfull of pills in their system and just let all of the 'truth' loose.

Fun Fact: It took a video of Robin Williams speaking to his daughter Zelda being as "magic as she was" in context to The Legend of Zelda games and also an animated short from a youtube reviewer of classic PC games by the name of Sarah (PushingUpRoses) telling us her life story for me to get up and just register here. As odd as it seems, they both inspired me to be less afraid to show people my quirks and try to meet new people.

That sucks. But there are plenty of people here in, or who have been in, the same boat as you, myself included. Hugs

Well my man. Welcome to WP.

Oh, the wonderful enduring power of the wonderful Robin Williams and his legacy to the planet! Welcome to Wrong Planet SitsWithWolves. You have found your way to your neurodiversity tribe here. I do not think you are paranoid at all. The people who said these very hurtful things to you - would they also criticise for example the blind for not seeing as they themselves do? Can they not see their own blindness? Apparently not; and so you have suffered. Now healing begins, I hope. I wish you all the best for the journey from here.

Hello SitswithWolves. Thank you for finding your way to Wrong Planet, I'm sure you will be a much-loved and respected member here and make a valuable contribution. The comments above are just a small example of the wonderful people who populate this neurodiverse planet and fill it with humour, creativity and kindness.

I'm sorry to hear about the awful things that happened to you. But you're among your own kind here, so I hope you soon settle in.

Been there, that's why I love spending time talking project cars on the internet. I can't imagine selling my wagon, first 6 speed I've had. She'll be named by the time I start adding rally goodies. Lol gotta think up Svenska baby names...

PM me if you want some second opinions on your next wheels...

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I've heard this more than a few times in my life too unfortunately. Welcome aboard, hopefully you stick around.

BTW are you from Arizona? I'm just guessing since you said you are native Apache. Sorry if that is presumptuous.

Arizona is close, but no. My heretage comes from NM. thanks for your sensitivity and using the word 'native' rather than indian , you have no idea how rare it is.