I have to many problems
13 Sep 2015, 4:47 pm
Have to make this post here. I can't care if I am being ignored. It been a third week of developing anxiety and depression since that I have been labeled as self centred idiot and some of friends agreed with her saying that to me. During the time I lost my confidence in my life at everything. I feel like I am losing all of my friends since I lost faith with them. Doing all the things behind my back, fooling, tricking me or lying whatever.
I understand I have aspergers, but what you want me to do with that? I am so sick and tired of it now. So much time of miscommunication and misinterpretations its killing me to death trap. Now I think I have a headache from the weeks of insane moments of being turned down frequently, leaving me unwanted to low social connection. This makes me feel I am losing trust and faith with everybody. I wish I have a better life and not living with this crap.
I don't even friggin understand why all of my friends do that to me. Saying its a busy life and stuff I do understand. I am a same. But why it has to be so ongoing that leaving me no option to learn what life is about. I want an effective social skills where I can understand situations more. Kept bagging at me of going to counselling or psychologist doesn't make me feel better. Because it kept getting me away from being a good social life where I can feel happy. I know I joined Meetup.com for that, but I am experiencing same crap as well.
I have no idea why its happening to me. I feel like I am cursed to bad luck life. I have no idea why I am being negative at these stuff. Its the reflection of negative stuff that kept throwing at me. It pinches my heart so badly. Why things aren't positive anymore? Being a Gen-Y is such a pain in arse. I wish I am a baby boomer like my parents, aunts and uncles generation whose are more successful.
When people have feelings that don't want to hurt someone. Why kept doing it? It doesn't solve this crisis. I don't want to hurt anyone, but I am sure that I had but I totally regret of it. I never wanted to hurt someone in a same way of people hurt me. Going to counselor and psychologist talking about this doesn't change anything. I been there and I know it, because I wasn't the problem. Who says I can blame on my disabilities that causes these issues? its not me! Gosh give me a bloody rest and treat me right with respect and show admiration please! I have been begging that for whole life! I don't want to end up like a beggar!
13 Sep 2015, 4:59 pm
I understand I have aspergers, but what you want me to do with that? I am so sick and tired of it now. So much time of miscommunication and misinterpretations its killing me to death trap. Now I think I have a headache from the weeks of insane moments of being turned down frequently, leaving me unwanted to low social connection. This makes me feel I am losing trust and faith with everybody. I wish I have a better life and not living with this crap.
I don't even friggin understand why all of my friends do that to me. Saying its a busy life and stuff I do understand. I am a same. But why it has to be so ongoing that leaving me no option to learn what life is about. I want an effective social skills where I can understand situations more. Kept bagging at me of going to counselling or psychologist doesn't make me feel better. Because it kept getting me away from being a good social life where I can feel happy. I know I joined Meetup.com for that, but I am experiencing same crap as well.
I have no idea why its happening to me. I feel like I am cursed to bad luck life. I have no idea why I am being negative at these stuff. Its the reflection of negative stuff that kept throwing at me. It pinches my heart so badly. Why things aren't positive anymore? Being a Gen-Y is such a pain in arse. I wish I am a baby boomer like my parents, aunts and uncles generation whose are more successful.
When people have feelings that don't want to hurt someone. Why kept doing it? It doesn't solve this crisis. I don't want to hurt anyone, but I am sure that I had but I totally regret of it. I never wanted to hurt someone in a same way of people hurt me. Going to counselor and psychologist talking about this doesn't change anything. I been there and I know it, because I wasn't the problem. Who says I can blame on my disabilities that causes these issues? its not me! Gosh give me a bloody rest and treat me right with respect and show admiration please! I have been begging that for whole life! I don't want to end up like a beggar!
I'm ignored too bro, so you have at least one person who won't ignore your threads. It kind of breaks my heart to see your posts because I remember so clearly when that started happening to me, when you suddenly become no longer relevant. Friends would just turn away from you and there would be so many misunderstandings, it's a nightmare.
Very few people understand these issues don't make a person rather it's eclipsing who we really are, they just don't understand and worse they don't want to. It sounds like your moving into the global isolation stage, which is what I call it when it starts to feel like even strangers start ignoring you.
It's the process of becoming persona non grata, you feel like you cease existing, and I hope you can hang on through that. I've been trying so hard to think of ways to help people like us going through this.
