Stolen, hospital , healing , need help .

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Hello .
I haven't posted for a bit .
A lot has happened to me , both good and bad...and including something which could be good , but could be undermined by my circumstances & health...but could turn better if I could get some help from my fellow Aspies .
I will detail it in a later post , I will make sure this goes up first .
Obviously , I am assuming that readers of this have , or can easily pick up , familiarity with my circumstances & position .

...A weekish back I had everything I owned that I did not wear (pretty minimal/monklike considering that I'm homeless and all ) stolen from me when my back was turned - My bedding , my other clothes , spare glasses , lots of reading (Including some bought-new comic books and a King James Bible , the latter $14.99-$19.99 at Target , pretty expensive for a public domain book ! ) , more - all gone - Including the bedding , remember - I stayed up all night trying to get some more dough , unsuccessfully , after I spent my remaining do$h on water and Diet Coke bottles and a 99c 7-11 bag , from them - Nope , din' get none .
The following ayem , while waiting around for things to open , when I finally found an open toilet ~ I had a G-I attack that soiled/destroyed my pants , all that I had .
I did seek out attention from an SF homeless team around , and I did gat taken to medical attention , first a hospital , where I was a couplish days , and where my open-wounds on the feet below where the toes were amputated got diagnosed as the area being infected with (IIRC) the same thing that led to the toe amputations before .
In January this year , briefly , I had finally bitten the bullet and submitted to the amputation while in WA state...only to have the hospital f**k me over by not getting me " second act " rehab after the amputation operation and the " first act " of heavy IV in an isolation room was over , the (Everett) hospital instead in fact discharging me the very same day the heavy IV part ran out back to being homeless and having to carry my possessions around every day up high Seattle hills and find no help from any other Bobby Sherman-Ville source , which was why I returned to CA .
I really think that that Everett hospital's behavior towards me then , along with what they did before on a previous stay in 2013 , something incredibly MASH " f**ked-up hospital "-like that I won't go into here , might be termable as malpractice . Perhaps I shouldn't have gone back there but I was desperate to get the amputation over with , in late 2013/early 2014 , and I hoped at least it would be over after that .
It wasn't .
I had gone to a great deal of trouble to try and make sure I would get decent second-act rehab to allow my feet and walking to adjust to the " new normal " after the projected amputation , believe me , though I sometimes ran into hospitals claiming " Well , sometimes people who have had their big toes both cut off don't need any rehab at all ! " , essentially saying you could get up the next moring after such an operation and walk normally .
Uh huh . Not I .
I had gone out of my way to find a hospital that would do the operation under the right circumstances and said I would get second-act rehab but:
L'hopital in Everett just reversed themselves , after indicating first that they would get me second-act , saying " we couldn't find anyone to take you " , discharging me (Which I will admit I was initially glad about but I didn't anticipate how totally cut off from the second act care I would be ~ Sniff , " cut off " , not trying to be funny/chipper here ) ~ They did some blunt lying/trying to cover their ass , in trying to manufacture a fake story that they "had offered me rehab but I rejected it " but that would be a digession here , so...And I'm trying to talk about my present situation , so.........However after a while I returnd to CA...My left toe-remnant had new wound open on it , then , my right one did as well .........

...I'm having to leave before I can get to the main point here , I hope I can access this computer again...........

...as I did not receive enough care in Santa Cruz ,he below-the-toe fragments went from being on just my left foot to my left AND right foot , in other words .
So , I went to San Francisco , hoping to get care there (as well as the " go to CCSF " hope , which I know I've mentioned before) - Npt much , BUT...........As I said , I got taken to a hospital a weekish ago , and from there I was sent to a care place , where they did have a usable computer , finally (Though , who knows - - maybe they'd end up forbidding me from using it .) - And where , bluntly , they claim they can cure me , but , I HAVE to have some help/I,provement in my condition here - Really , fairly minimal help , and NOT involving in any way either asking people to gift me with money or offer me any sort of place to stay after I am (supposedly) discharged from here some weeks from now - Neither of those things are requested , none nada nowt , BUT , my social-economic position and conditions here have led me to plan leaving here next week , as they are utterly restrictive , not allowing you to get out during the day and get some important things I need to make this bearable - And as far as " making it bearable " goes , I am in a curtain-divided bedroom space considerable smaller than the lockdown cell I was in in Santa Cruz jail earlier this year , and there is no outdoor air that I know of coming in at all/any courtyard even , again , I had more fresh air in jail and so I was planning to leave this coming Monday , as someone who has only the things he was wearing when he came in (Remember , my things were stolen ) is not in a good position here (Although I have some things that I sent for to be sent to my USPS mailbox that have already arrived , I have checked !...And , I just need some slight replacement of clothes , etc. , to make it acceptable here and I have SSDI money that can pay for it , as I said , no money asked for at all nor neither any place to stray with anyone , I'd accept being discharged homeless with good feet in September/October , which is rather " summer " in San Francisco anyway and taking it from there...I would maybe like this to be my " last tour " with me maybe getting out (of being homeless) " at twenty " (I have been homeless - or " temporarily housed " or in " ex-homeless " situations that didn't work out , including ones connected with one particularly thieving San Francisco social services agency I regret having become involved with ..for 19 years really , since the time of the Big Two party conventions in 1996 - and there was an 80s stint before , too .) . But I digress .
If I can get , basically , some help with fetching/getting things I could stay here (& try to continue from here with the " going to CCSF " concept - which now has to be pictured for early 2016 , rather than this fall semester , as I first pictured , and becomes ever more complicated...) - but I will explain it later .
Please ?

...Before these latest developments , (I mentioned this here) I made an order to Walmart.Com for a crappy incredibly super-cheap tablet , which I know from my E-mail has already arrived at my Market Street , here in San Francisco , PO mailbox place !
(Kraftiekortie and Auntblabby know my real name and my addresses if you want to contact )
I had only the clothes on my back (+ the things in my poickets) when I came in here (Including " disaster/emergency " replacement sweatpants I needed to get from the hospital that I was referred here from .)
This place will not let me go outside AT ALL .
Barest basics - I need to get that mail , I need some basic (They can be 2nd-hand , for the outer clothes - I know that's what a homeless person is supposed to wear , cheerfully . .) clothes , and some soap , and a bag/duffle of some sort , so that I will have decent clothe when I walk out of here , other stuff .
I can pay for someone to get these necessities for me , I have a non-accessed week already in my SSDI and more will come in soon ~ Yes , I want someone to see me here , and I will give them my ATM card for my SSDI account , I will trust them (with some safeguards) ~ And simply list the things I need , and ask them to get them and bring them back to me , and the card .
I can't walk out of here AT ALL , even just for an afternoon , without checking myself out Against Medical Advice , leaving here .
I think I could endure my time here if I had that cheap tablet , which has already arrived for me , plus a little more clothes , etc.
As I said (for the last time now) , I do not ask for any gifts of money from anyone , just for you to use my own SSDI money for me , and I will not ask for any kind of " You can stay here with us..." for when I get out , none whatsoever , I realize/recognize/internalize that , at least for now , I am meant to be homeless , it is my karma/cross to bear (Kevin , the blogger The Homeless Guy had a comment re: " God may allow homelessness for some reason we don't know " and invoking God allowing the death of Job's children .) . Just to make things bearable for me here .
Yes , this requires someone here in the Bay Area to help me (or wherever , if they could make it here , or somehow send someone else) , physically meet me to get the cards & instructions .
I wouldn't even ask for any regular visits in the month-and-half they project me being here , just for the one needed thing to be successfully filled , so I may have the tablet , a little more clothes , PAID FOR BY ME WITH MY OWN MONEY , etcetera .
Otherwise , I may leave here AMA , so that I may access my money , get the tablet , etc.

...It seems to me that my expressed ambition to go to CCSF (Community College of San Francisco) is just the sort of " improving yourself " thing that " nice " homeless folks are supposed to want to do , nice , but not " asking for very much " and it seems to me like it , as one of the things I say I'd like to do , might make someone who is in the position to help get: (1) a bare minimum amount of clothes (2) the tablet that's already arrived and (3) etcetera for me , as I said , fetch them, for me and bring them here to me , here in this rehab place where I am not allowed to leave at all , just putting me on a level to be able to walk out holding a couple of things and do dome 'Net contacting/writing while I am here .
Perhaps not .

...My G-I problems (Perhaps posting about this makes people repulsed by me but I've already posted about it , I might as well trudge on...) have my one pair of pants , what I am wearing , the emergency pants I got from the hospital that sent me here , getting dirty - I really need some for-now clothing , Goodwill/Sally Army clothing , for the " outside clothes " , would be just fine , and I would be paying for whoever did me the favor of GETTING it (Telling you my size , etcetera , obviously .) , I have my SSDI money sufficient for me to get those things - I asked this place for some remporary pants , all they gaveme were WAAYY-to-small-for-me teeny thin things ...
Please help me !

[MOVED from General to Haven]

...Whee-ee-ee ! !! I got 6 ones up , before my smelly , poor, amputated , G-I problems homeless ass got moved to The Haven , anyway ...

please, please, please stay where you are getting help until you are healed even though it's uncomfortable. i can't get your stuff for you as i'm an easterner. perhaps you could make a post with the subject line: help needed in san francisco.

...Frankly , the thought of explaining everything all over again , in a new post , writing it again,,,
BTW , another problem of mine re: my ATM card that I get my SSDI on is that , if you don't use it at least once every 30 days , they count you as gone and the account shuts off - It has already been nearing two weeks since I used it ~



...ote="cathylynn"]please, please, please stay where you are getting help until you are healed even though it's uncomfortable. i can't get your stuff for you as i'm an easterner. perhaps you could make a post with the subject line: help needed in san francisco.[/quote]

as far as the new post, all you would have to say is: subject: need help in san francisco. thread post: stuck in hospital. will pay for someone to run a couple of necessary errands. please PM me.

as far as needing to use your card, if you don't get help, and you don't heal first, and if talking to the hospital social worker doesn't yield a solution, stay where you are until the last reasonable moment. i used to be a doctor at a VA hospital. we would give folks passes to deal with things they absolutely had to. seems hard to believe there's no way to deal with your situation at your hospital. perhaps if you explained about your card to a doc, he would take you back if you returned promptly after signing out AMA. stay calm during the discussion including if they don't work with you. it never hurts to ask. at least you will have exhausted all your options.

...I have done so .
I don't know whether the Mods might delete it anyhow . I am not very optimistic .
The , um , I might have to say this carefully at more length to not offend you and I don't want to starin that here , but I am not optimistic that the hospital would " go along " with me , the whole " it's our rules " thing...
I have to go now , too , so no time to write that.........
Visually , anyway , my feet appear to be healing surprisingly fast so perhaps I can leave fairly early anyway .
I really can't step into this " my SDI turns off " thing , as " you shouldn't get SSDI " as some may ne , I would be f****d ~ dead ~ without it frankly ! !! Perhaps some people want an Ayn Rand/Ted Nugent/ et al (Chuck Norris) world of " everyone passes a test/does it ALL ON THIER OWN or dies " but such a world would not be one I could survive in , really , certainly now and after all the damage I have sustained in this life , and the things I did not have , aside from the fact that most people who say " I did it TOTALLY ON MY OWN ! Rugged individualism ! " if not all are speaking BS , it is rather " You didn't build that " ~ meaning not " entirely on your own , with no help from anyone else " as Obama said (and was heavily dissed for saying so so he tries to forget it now) .




e="cathylynn"]as far as the new post, all you would have to say is: subject: need help in san francisco. thread post: stuck in hospital. will pay for someone to run a couple of necessary errands. please PM me.

as far as needing to use your card, if you don't get help, and you don't heal first, and if talking to the hospital social worker doesn't yield a solution, stay where you are until the last reasonable moment. i used to be a doctor at a VA hospital. we would give folks passes to deal with things they absolutely had to. seems hard to believe there's no way to deal with your situation at your hospital. perhaps if you explained about your card to a doc, he would take you back if you returned promptly after signing out AMA. stay calm during the discussion including if they don't work with you. it never hurts to ask. at least you will have exhausted all your options.[/quote]

At least you're getting your needed rest now. When is the last day of the 30 days?

Talk to some other residents about how to get passes. Are you in a halfway house?

...No , it's not a halfway house , assuming you mean either " Drug/alchohol recovery " or " Just out of prison " - I guess there's other meanings , but it's basically just , um , various degrees of sick , including many old .
I cannot get any " emergency clothes " from them , bar pajamas that are way to small for me , and thin ~ I am wearing one as underwear now , for my one pair of pants -

...Again , I really cannot get " emergency clothes " barring possibly another set of two-small pajama bottoms which I'd again wear as underwear , if they do get me some .
Now , actually , since I found myself able to use this computer , in the 1st-floor dining/etcetera room (However I , myself , eat in my room , at my bed , this room is apparently open for anyone to eat there in theory at lunch but in practice I don't know) (Of course , maybe something could happen where I get in Dutch with them and get stopped from using it , I suppose , involving one particular nighttime employee here I've had played-down/deflected argument with , anyhow .) , things seem fairly neat now , especially as my below-the-former-toes wounds on my feet really do seem to be responding to the treatment , and filling in some ! So , that is good .
And , I get three hots/a cot . Whoopie dang doo .
No , it is comfortable anyway ~ But , I really have to say that , as things stand now , I think I would really have to stick to the timetable of leaving Monday the 31st , simply , losing access to my SSDI is something I cannot allow to happen , and Tuesday the 4th was the last time I used my SSDI ATM card !
Could my feet have even , God providing , have gotten at least on-top fully filled in enough ???
Perhaps that is overly optimistic .
I am have had a schedule of " You're supposed to be here for five/six weeks " announced to me ~ But , um , having my keeps-me-alive SSDI cut off is something I CANNOT do !
No , I'm afraid that any and all personell at this place would tend to respond to any " Could I just BRIEFLY go outside ? " with " No , it's against our rules " !
I suppose VA hospitals may be different , but this place (Especially?? the floor I'm on ~ I am 55 and " vulnerable " , after all .) tends to be , fairly strongly , anyhow , pretty old people in those too-small-for-me PJs , going around in wheelchairs (My immediate roommate is an 80-yr old - Mentally fine - with the same , technically first name as I [In his case it's the first part of ghis , intended , " Texas-style (like Billy Bob) ' two hammocked short names ' name that he does not use generally , in my case it's straightforwardly my single first name - Would anyone but an Aspie lengthily digress about something like this ?] , though he really uses the second part of that name , the further-away 2nd one is a seemingly not generally talking at all? similarly old person .) .
I still could use that help I asked about , in other words .
Before the events happened that led me here , too , I was planning , on that day of the 10th , to post here and appeal for help from WP folk , as all of my non-worn possessions had been stolen , remember , though coming to , first , the hospital , then here , (& having additionally no Web access) cut that off . It is still the case that I have nothing , I am wearing the emergency pants I got from the hospital , which are my only pants now , and one of the 4-or-so T-shirts that I came to SF from Santa Cruz wearing , I am simply ~ if comfy-ily (great grammar ?) being nicely taken care of now , and remember , my SSDI card failing to work in two weeks ~ (When I was in jail for 23-ish days in 2013 it worked okay when I got out .) !
I have been HL /briefly w/a place or - not working out - "ex/formerly- occasionally) for 19 continuous years , remember . 1&3/4-ish years of being so in the 80s , too ~ so I can have my " 20-year card " already ?
If I ever am housed , well that plus Aspie-ness (When you're HL you are always on stage , really .) , I don't know what " social-ness " I will display - That is , if I ever am . remember , thinking of the possibility that I will die homeless (Or , perhaps some - less nice/without the hope I have now ?) - " inside now "-type of situation .) is in my mind .
I am trying to pursue to CCSF possibility , a recent letter that I sent to them has gone nonaswered to date , briefly , and the whole getting-transferable-credits question , for two , has become more complicated to me .