21 Sep 2015, 2:47 am
Here I am waiting for myself to finally be reconciled with sleep and I've got questions again. I think I've been juggling too much information for any single night's dreaming to fully explore. My dreams get amorphous most times things get this difficult. I've got nowhere to go but up but I've been crunching through ceiling tiles for years now; I just know I'm gonna wake up on Monday with ten people to talk to, MAYBE two of which I know personally and none of whom I needed to hear from as far as my own priorities are concerned. I don't like asking anybody how high they want me to jump and it seems there's nothing else for me to do lately. Who will it be this Monday - old companies? new companies? the government? government contractors? If I had a complacent bone in my body it would've metastasized and corrupted every scrap of that internet guy you know as cberg.
I've been living in geologic time as a means of humoring people who aren't even capable of respecting the work they ask of me. I'm scrambling to find ways to give that time back to the few whom I can level within less than 40 hours.
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"Standing on a well-chilled cinder, we see the fading of the suns, and try to recall the vanished brilliance of the origin of the worlds."
-Georges Lemaitre
"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos
21 Sep 2015, 5:04 am
21 Sep 2015, 12:55 pm
Thanks... not sure I feel any different but I'm glad not to have 5 I.T. recruiters knocking my door down before I'm even awake. Today they're just emailing me the "urgent requirements"... People today have an unbelievable capacity for ignoring the real costs of their 'doing business', every single one of these people wants me to drop my whole life and move to a city I've never seen to build and/or fix something they can't (or won't) describe. My parents are right behind all this; the only people I trust are some friends of mine who I know I can escape this nonsense with...
Furthermore my family is asking me to trust these giant greedy corporations before the flesh & blood people I actually know. My dad 100% believes 'corporations are people' and my own mom seems to think working for one is my only option. It's like if your parents tried to tell you Samsung = life... Basically they believe I deserve to be kept below the 'poverty line' because I'm working instead of going to college, even if that means studying ten years to get paid below the NY McDonald's minimum wage by a company with a daily coffee tab of $500,000,000. If I make it throuh all this alive & sane, I just want to spoil my friends - I've been working so long I don't remember what the goal was.
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"Standing on a well-chilled cinder, we see the fading of the suns, and try to recall the vanished brilliance of the origin of the worlds."
-Georges Lemaitre
"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos
