Apologies thread

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This is a thread for any apologies you want to post. Mods, if you would like, feel free to sticky this if you want.
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I'm sorry to some of the guys on WP.net whom I lashed out and rubbed the wrong way. I may not be perfect, I may still want to move to L.A., and I am sorry for talking about it to the point of aggravation, but my mind can be a bit scattered and that I, like everyone else, have some sort of a unique way of getting things done, even if it may deviate from what you guys might say.

I sometimes lashed out about how I hated my parents, but TBH, ours is more bipolar of a relationship than anything else, really.

I'm working on my dream of moving to Los Angeles, but it's not like I'm dreaming about it still (without getting anything done), I am slowly, and somehow, making that dream come true.

I think you're all right.

I do hope, when you move, that you will consider keeping in touch with your parents. They might not be perfect, they might be irritatingly old-fashioned--but they are your parents.

I think, once you move out on your own, that they'll respect you more.

I didn't think this way when I was younger. I wanted to get away from my parents, too. Something told me, though, to keep on trying to mend the relationship. Fortunately, I haven't lost touch, and now reap the benefits of their wisdom.

There are so many people here who are detached from their families. Most of the time, whether these people deny it or not, it's really a major body-blow in life for them.

My surviving family members are estranged from me and yes, it is a body-blow, because it's no picnic to live your life without a single person in it who is actually related to you, who grew up with you, who has known you since you were a baby, etc. It is traumatic to just have to go on in life with nobody who is supposed to love you the way family is supposed to love you.

It's horrible to live life without a family.

However......if those family members are such unhappy, disturbed people that they cut you out of their lives, you're better off without them.

Because it's also horrible to live life interacting with people who are hateful to you.

This was my situation. I didn't cut THEM out of my life -- they cut me out. I had a sister hang up the phone on me on Christmas Eve. My own therapist, upon hearing in more detail about each of of my siblings, actually told me that I'm better off without people like them in my life. She said something like "I'm not supposed to analyse and diagnose people who aren't in this room, but suffice to say..." and went on to basically say at least two of them have serious personality disorders and are, in not so many words fcked up people. (My words but her basic sentiment in a nutshell.) They are probably still the same today and would have subjected me to even more miserable mind games had I still been in contact with them these last couple of decades.

My therapist called them "toxic". Those were toxic relationships and probably would have continued to be so to this day. It's actually healthy to cut toxic relationships out of our lives, even if they happen to be family.

For me it's actually a blessing that I don't have to deal with them anymore. Sometimes unfortunately the people we're estranged from are toxic people.

I don't know if equestriatola's people are that toxic too, or not. But I too broke away to a whole new place to live, and my toxic family never thought I would ever do that. They too said I'd never amount to anything or do what I set out to do. But I did.

So, to equestriatola -- you will too! If I could do it, you can. I believe you will. Nobody thought I would but I did.

Thank you all. If you have anyone you'd like to apologize here, just post it here.

I would like to apologize again for calling everybody "freaks" on this forum in one of my recent threads because I was too spineless to accept that I'm just as autistic as anyone else here, except that I just don't show it as much. I wrote on a thread about morals about how my greatest character trait is "authenticity," but right now I don't think this could be any further from the truth - I don't live authentically, because I don't even have a sense of self right now. I should probably leave this forum for a little while, and return only after I've learned to cope with being autistic a little bit more. Consider this a "time-out" from WP.