The Truth

Post Reply New Topic

Like all of my threads, this may offend some people. But please see the bigger picture.


When I was younger, I was unaware of how I acted made others feel about me nor did I really care that much. My 18, 19, and part of my 20 year old mentality was I just simply didn't give a f**k what others thought. But I was also unaware of how cocky, arrogant, self centered, and autistic I appeared to others. You see, seeing how I make others feel has never been my strong suit. And honestly, I never knew I was coming off to others as autistic. In my mind, I had no clue why I was even autistic at all. I mean, i'm not some uncoordinated anime lover who has no interest in others. I'm a sporty extroverted pop loving and just wanna f**k a pretty girl like any other nt men does. And my line of thought in my mid and late teens was, why am I even associated with autistics? I'm better then these losers. I don't come off as autistic at all, why am I even autistic at all?


But then I found out the cold hard truth.


The truth is I do come off as autistic. Sometimes all it takes is watching yourself interacting with other people from a third person point of view. I found out this June when my mother told me as we were driving to camp. And it changed EVERYTHING. Why do you think every job I have they treat me as less then equal, why I can't get a girlfriend, why they treat me like I can't do anything? Because i'm autistic. AND I HATE IT! I'll never get a girlfriend ever because I can't hide it. And you know why I hate being autistic? Because autism is synonymous with a nerd, a virgin, SSI bound, unsuccessful, less then equal. Out of all of the autistics iv'e known, not one of them. Not one, was good with women and had a pretty gf. All of them are the same to me. And you know what doesn't f*****g help? All of these stupid f*****g statistics saying unemployment rate for autistic is very high. That's some negative s**t right there.

They disrespect me they treat me like s**t, women never give me a chance and now I know the truth. It's because i'm autistic.

And I can't have it, I was born to crave power, respect, and love.


I hope these neurotypical assfucks enjoy themselves getting into relationships, f*****g doggystyle, and f*****g in the shower because thats something I never have.


Phantom out

I totally agree with you. It's no wonder aspies are mostly unemployed, because employers value social skills more than qualification and prefer team players.

You should keep looking for a new truth, because that one will only kill you.

This "Truth" is only half true

You can learn to curve your differences into a good thing, self-pity gets you nowhere.
Find a job somewhere where you don't need to be a social person, make friends with girls that aren't the girly type (tomboys and nerds are a good bet).

You shouldn't hide your autism, but don't treat is as a disability: use it as a special skill, one that is sought after more than you think, people are simply looking in the wrong places.

A lot can happen and a lot can change in your 20's. I think it is a delayed teenhood for a lot of autistic people, it certainly was for me. 14-19 was like being stuck at 13, then I finally reached the equivalent of 17 aged about 28.

The positive new experiences in life are just as intense and significant whatever age you have them, so in many ways it's a shame to cram everything into your teens when life usually continues for three or four times as long. You'll think differently as you get older, at least to some degree, and that will effect how you project yourself. Just a subtle shift can have seismic effects.

It's probably untrue that most Aspies are unemployed.

It's true that at least some are underemployed.

Yeah....like Feyorkien said, you have search for a "new truth."

Had I believed the "truth" of many people's perception of me, I wouldn't be where I am today (which isn't great, but at least I've lived an independent existence).

Why don't you really read what people write. It might help you.

You're addicted to porn, darkphantomx1, it's normal that you don't care about anything else.
I challenge you to go without anything that gives you sexual gratification in any way for one week.

I have work (freelance), I've had relationships throughout all of my adult life, and am currently going through less aspie and more depression related setbacks.
And I do come off autistic and mindblind.
I also don't exercise, and am not particularly wealthy.
I have friends on the spectrum with wives and children, and one is on his way to becoming a judge.
Statistics are not even as personally useful as a fortune telling, or my anecdotal evidence proving the statistics wrong.

Of course man I just wanna f**k. f**k doggystyle, i'm in love with ass.

You know what my mom always said? Don't be looking at porn because it's bad. But what does she know? She's a sexless middle aged woman. I'd be surprised if she even had a sex drive.

I'm young, horny, and male. Of course I wanna f**k. I'd do it several times a day! All I need is a girlfriend then we can f**k all night.

There are many middle-aged women who have intense sex drives; I've known a few myself.

You might get lucky, and find one who is attracted to young men. They can teach you a lot!s

Well, I think your mom was right.
Why not try and see if porn-abstinence helps you or not. You can fap and all, cater to your sex drive... just without porn.
If not, fine, watch your porn. But at least give it a go.

At the same time, if you don't see why it's bad, it might be best to hit an absolute low in your life first.

Earthling is very much so right, it's addled your brain. You need to take a step back and find other things in your life that have meaning because right now sex is your hyper priority and it's driving you into a very deep hole. Control yourself.

I'm always scared to reply in "the haven" cause I never know if what I say comes off as too harsh.

Honestly, I steer clear of your threads because they all downgrade women to nothing but a"f" buddy (and buddy is being positive) and there are way too many cuss words. Not many girls are going to be attracted to that. I don't know you, but others are saying you're heavily into porn and that's what porn does - it reduces men and women to objects just to be used. I'd get away from that crap.

I was told to forget about girls and do something useful, because no girl is ever going to want me. That's good advice and you should also heed it, phantom. I understand you're horny and angry, I used to be like you a few years ago. But then I understood that some guys, such as me and you, are not meant to ever have any business with women. So get over it.

Dude, you need to start your own thread in The Haven (sarcasm). I understand feeling sorry for yourself for a small time is ok, but don't wallow in self-pity - it'll only take you down. Whoever gave you that advice does not care one iotta about you and I would steer clear of them.