I have a terrible combination diagnosis.

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Before I got my ASD(aspergers) diagnosis, I was diagnosed with EUPD, which I definitely have.

EUPD symptoms: mood swings, anxiety, auditory hallucinations(typically people insulting me, which I tend to snap at), paranoid tendencies, feelings of inadequacy.

Now, imagine the interplay of those two conditions. I feel like I'm in a slow panic attack, and no one can tell.

Feels like the world hates me most of the time. I know logically that's BS.

I'm AvPD and Aspie... Trust me when I say that I feel your pain. Especially regarding the feelings of inadequacy. I see non-PD autists and neurotypical personality disordered people alike and think to myself how they seem lucky in a very unlucky situation. "It could always be worse". I don't know you one bit, but I bet that you have some very beautiful thought processes and great sensititivy as a resulft of this, though. That is a gift and a punishment at the same time.

Out of intellectual curiosity; if I am not mistaken, EUPD is just the diagnose from the ICD, as opposed to BPD from the DSM, yes? Or do you think there are grave differences? Are the hallucinations not part of being schizophrenic or schizotypal? I am not familiar with the EUPD labeling, only with BPD.

I have Asperger's, OCD, APD (Auditory Processing Disorder), NVLD (Nonverbal Learning Disability), and Tourette Syndrome, The APD/NVLD combo is particularly devastating, because APD impairs my auditory learning ability, while NVLD impairs my visual learning ability. The Asperger's makes me unable to figure out how to get a date, and the OCD makes me unable to let go of it and just be a happy person. All these disorders make life hell for me.

The auditory stuff is more me hearing someone saying words which having a phonetic similarity to insults that tend to wind me up. So it's more paranoia I suppose. I know its BS because I've been caught out by sounds that happen to sound like a human voice for a moment or two, then I realise it's just coincidence.

EUPD typically a result of abusive traumatic experiences, which definitely is what I had.
BPD can be brought on by similar things, as far as I know, but I don't think they are exactly the same.

Although the British mental health system takes a lot of cues from the US one, I think there are diagnostic procedures that are different sometimes.

I think that, despite everything, some people have alternating perceptions and views of the world.

For instance, this woman, who’s also a teacher, talks openly about AS, something which was never outwardly known to me as being there, and a tall order for a crowd /person/academic who’s not me, to understand.
Now, socially, I have had to equate and de stigmatise myself from outward perception caused by having Asperger's.
I think each person suffers indignation and isolation and ignorance at various points of their child/adult life, but when the truth unravels and social acceptance is slow, the sensory reality is one that can’t be reapplied to anyone else.

Monitoring your own differences to that of progress, identity or closure, needs some pro self assessment and some contribution to realise ones full potential.

I could go on, but living with a non certainty that you can channel these concepts onto someone else only denies full value of your skills and socially and metaphorically, a lost clause isn’t something that should be taken lightly.