Please pray everyone
Everyone who wants our marriage to survive this storm, please keep praying. Today it is one day until the first court date for the divorce and four days until Jackie and I will have been married for five years. Please pray that we'll be able to quickly forgive each other and not to hold grudges, that I won't bring this up as "the time you abandoned me" or any such sad nonsense that would only serve to make things worse between us. Pray that God will restore us together and repair our marriage and all the relationships that have been damaged by words, that He'll have us say the things that need to be said between us and everyone else. I love my lady Jacklyn Suzanne Fournier and as only Eve and Adam were meant for each other so I believe only Jackie and I are meant for each other. I know it is a short time for everything to be fixed now, but God made the universe in six days and nothing is impossible for Him. Please keep praying everyone, and hopefully Jackie and I will be back together soon and the divorce will stop and our marriage will never end, hopefully we'll even get to enjoy our fifth anniversary together rather than separately. Please keep praying everyone.
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Does your wife have an account on WP?
No----but, she has read other things he's written on here----that's what started this downhill spiral, actually.
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And when thou prayest, thou shalt not be as the hypocrites are: for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and in the corners of the streets, that they may be seen of men. Verily I say unto you, They have their reward. But thou, when thou prayest, enter into thy closet, and when thou hast shut thy door, pray to thy Father which is in secret; and thy Father which seeth in secret shall reward thee openly.
You're in my thoughts. That's all I'm comfortable saying.
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From start to finish I've made you feel this
Uncomfort in turn with the world you've learned
To love through this hate to live with its weight
A burden discerned in the blood you taste
You're in my thoughts. That's all I'm comfortable saying.
That is one of my favorite Bible quotes.
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Praying.
It's an unfortunate lesson in how quickly things can get screwed up in marriage. We all are guilty, despite our best efforts, of airing some relational negativity. I've managed to resist a LOT of temptation in that area, and if I have a complaint at all it's that my wife on occasion succumbed to peer pressure and embarrassed me. I honestly don't think she intended to…it was just "girls' night out" girl-talk. I think we were fortunate to have the kind of relationship in which I was able to speak my mind (in private) and we were able to work out exactly what those boundaries should be, the difference between "I need to talk" and "husbands are scum." I'm not fooling myself here, either…EVERYONE goes through this, and having been married almost 10 years now, we're not immune to it.
All I can offer is this: If you want to reconcile in a marriage battle, DO NOT AGREE to a no-fault. Just don't. Either bury her in paperwork every step of the way, or soldier on until there is no way a court can deny her a divorce in your jurisdiction. It may not seem like it, but you DO have options. Never allow anyone to bully you into signing legal documents. The only way I'd take an out is if I were cheating, abusing her or the kids, etc. NFD's make ugly stuff like that go away quietly. Well, I don't beat my wife, cheat, or abuse my kids. I'd make every effort to reconcile. I'd fight to the bitter end should anyone get the bright idea to "lawyer up."
Most importantly, if I ultimately had no choice or say in the matter, all I can do is put it in God's hands. And I see you've already done that. Best wishes to you both.
You're in my thoughts. That's all I'm comfortable saying.
That is one of my favorite Bible quotes.
It is quite good to keep note of, especially since I actually want this prayer to be answered rather than just talked about for human consideration. God is the only one who can work in my wife's heart and that is what really needs to be done. He's restored my love for her and made me willing to do whatever it takes to make things right, but right now it seems like Jackie is exceedingly angry at me and her heart is hardened on the matter. If it weren't for the judge taking my saying "I don't want the divorce" as contesting the divorce, then Jackie would have divorced me yesterday. As it is we now have until June 11th for God to keep working in us to heal us and I hope He does restore her love for me as He has restored my love for her. There's nothing I can do or say, but I hope Jackie sees how much I love her in this and hopefully, if God restores us together as I hope He does, then hopefully she'll be thankful for the extra time to heal. I really wish we could spend our 5th anniversary together, but humanly it is impossible. I still love Jackie regardless and I ask everyone to keep praying - and, yeah, you don't have to say that you are because it is better that only God knows you're praying than for everyone else.
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It's an unfortunate lesson in how quickly things can get screwed up in marriage. We all are guilty, despite our best efforts, of airing some relational negativity. I've managed to resist a LOT of temptation in that area, and if I have a complaint at all it's that my wife on occasion succumbed to peer pressure and embarrassed me. I honestly don't think she intended to…it was just "girls' night out" girl-talk. I think we were fortunate to have the kind of relationship in which I was able to speak my mind (in private) and we were able to work out exactly what those boundaries should be, the difference between "I need to talk" and "husbands are scum." I'm not fooling myself here, either…EVERYONE goes through this, and having been married almost 10 years now, we're not immune to it.
All I can offer is this: If you want to reconcile in a marriage battle, DO NOT AGREE to a no-fault. Just don't. Either bury her in paperwork every step of the way, or soldier on until there is no way a court can deny her a divorce in your jurisdiction. It may not seem like it, but you DO have options. Never allow anyone to bully you into signing legal documents. The only way I'd take an out is if I were cheating, abusing her or the kids, etc. NFD's make ugly stuff like that go away quietly. Well, I don't beat my wife, cheat, or abuse my kids. I'd make every effort to reconcile. I'd fight to the bitter end should anyone get the bright idea to "lawyer up."
Most importantly, if I ultimately had no choice or say in the matter, all I can do is put it in God's hands. And I see you've already done that. Best wishes to you both.
Well, at the pre-hearing the judge took the statement I made of "I don't want a divorce" to mean that I'm contesting the divorce. I could have argued about the minutia of stuff, but I didn't and I didn't sign anything. Our, what sounds like, last or at least next court date is June 11th. I've never been abusive and I've never committed nor sought adultery - I have had crushes on other women and I had been open with it about her and it hurt her feelings quite a bit apparently. I had called her lazy about three times... and I really shouldn't have, I know. I was starting to think about divorce right before she left and had started to become apathetic and callous toward her, and I really hate myself for it, and now she probably doesn't believe that I've changed but God has really restored my love for her by this as well as protected us from dying in that car of hers which was falling apart due to lack of maintenance.
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Thanks. Without God continuing to work in both of our hearts it won't, but through Him it is possible for us to be restored and healed. I was starting to hate my precious Jackie right before she left me, but now I love her more than life itself and by God through this sadness He has restored my love for both Him and my wife. I wish I knew how to make things right myself, but I hope God will work in her heart as much as He has worked and continues to work in mine. Keep praying though - especially if I spend our 5th anniversary alone as I'll be very tempted to kill myself yet more than I have been. Please, everyone, keep praying and you don't have to say that you are but just do. Thank you so very much everyone who is praying though.
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Thanks. Without God continuing to work in both of our hearts it won't, but through Him it is possible for us to be restored and healed. I was starting to hate my precious Jackie right before she left me, but now I love her more than life itself and by God through this sadness He has restored my love for both Him and my wife. I wish I knew how to make things right myself, but I hope God will work in her heart as much as He has worked and continues to work in mine. Keep praying though - especially if I spend our 5th anniversary alone as I'll be very tempted to kill myself yet more than I have been. Please, everyone, keep praying and you don't have to say that you are but just do. Thank you so very much everyone who is praying though.
@OP is your wife reading this thread?

Thanks. Without God continuing to work in both of our hearts it won't, but through Him it is possible for us to be restored and healed. I was starting to hate my precious Jackie right before she left me, but now I love her more than life itself and by God through this sadness He has restored my love for both Him and my wife. I wish I knew how to make things right myself, but I hope God will work in her heart as much as He has worked and continues to work in mine. Keep praying though - especially if I spend our 5th anniversary alone as I'll be very tempted to kill myself yet more than I have been. Please, everyone, keep praying and you don't have to say that you are but just do. Thank you so very much everyone who is praying though.
@OP is your wife reading this thread?
She could be, but I have no idea if she's still reading now or not. Aside from one final message to me, she hasn't communicated with me since March 29th - the day she said she'd return home from babysitting.
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Thanks.
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