I WANT to MOVE!!
I like living in my apartment, I finally bought my own furniture, I need to buy more. I'm comfortable living here & I'm glad I'm not scared of living here alone. I really like living here, but alot of the time, I hate living here! There are alot of reasons why I hate it here,
1. My sister picked out my apartment & when I saw it online, I told her no, it was in the same neighborhood as my first apartment building, she got mad at me, cuz she wanted this apartment for me. I didn't want to live on the same street. I wasn't in my right mind, cuz of the grief of losing my mom. Weeks later, I went to look at the apartment, I really like it & said I want it, time was running out, we were selling our mother's house. Now I regret moving here.
2. The noise upstairs, I'm Very Very Sensitive to noise, I can hear almost everything, I can hear them going upstairs, I can hear their footsteps, banging & more stuff. I guess it would be OK to live here if I was working in the day, but I'm not working, so I'm here all day unless I go out. I wish I have more in my boring life.
3. The sun in my living room, I'm Sensitive to the sun too. Toooo much sun can really hurt my psoriasis & too much of it can make my stomach sick.
4. My apartment making me depress, cuz I So Strongly want to move. My apartment can make me feel very bad when I feel very bad, I want to scream so much, I feel like I'm going really crazy, I can feel like the walls are closing in on me & when I do go out, I can't get dressed fast enough.
Maybe its my Asperger that making me feel this way, cuz I don't know how to handle tough situation. I had soooo much more problems in my first two apartments. I feel better now that I'm writing a post & getting closer to my 400 posts
I have a journal, I love writing in it.
I wish I can move out of California or to a different city where there is less sun, I don't know if that can happen, this is sunny California ![]()
IvanAufulich
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I moved 17 times since I left home at age 19.
There is no perfect place. There is a place with the right mixture of pluses and minuses that you can find tolerable.
I live in a 195 square meter house (2100 square feet) on 2 hectares (5 acres) of land in the middle of nowhere. I'm not moving again.
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BirdInFlight
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It's true there isn't really a perfect place, although it's also true that you can at least be closer or farther from you personal ideal, and "farther" makes for misery while "closer" at least gets you a more comfortable situation for your needs.
I can relate to the problem of noise from an upstairs neighbor -- it's bad enough from the sides, but upstairs can be particularly hard to live with if they are heavy-footed or drop things. I've got someone like that above me as I speak, and I'm often repeatedly woken up through the small hours of the morning by resounding thuds and crashes from this person. I've complained and it went quiet, but now he's started again. Interestingly, when I made my complaint I learned that others have already complained before me, and this guy is on his final warning.
I swore years ago I'd never again take an apartment that wasn't the top floor, but in this case circumstances meant I had little choice if I didn't want to opt for the woods or a bridge, basically.
About the sunshine -- what you have on your windows can go a long way to dealing with that in a way that will be more to your liking. There are all kinds of blinds, drapes and other window options that can reduce the amount of light, or block it entirely, or filter it so that there's still light but it's not as bright. Try to investigate some stores online or in real life and research what kinds of blinds, shutters and curtains are available these days. You can get any level of light control from window coverings these days.
You can also get a UV film that you apply to the window which can decrease how much light comes through, too. The sunlight problem is the easiest one to remedy without having to move apartments --or even states!
About general dislike or unease -- try to make a special project of "doing up the place" to your liking. It's a good step that you've bought some furniture of your own, now for the next thing, think about embellishments -- pictures for your walls, plants -- pictures and a couple of easy-care plants can go a long way to making a place look and feel "homey" and like it's yours and not just a bland place anyone might live.
You can even make cheap, quirky pictures out of wrapping paper with interesting designs, or postcards and greetings cards with a pretty or funny illustration, and get cheap frames from Target or other large stores.
Rugs for the floor, throw blankets for the couch, throw pillows. Accessories like these customize your home and make it truly feel like yours. It's more enjoyable to be in your place when it looks more "you", than when it looks bare and could almost be a hotel room rather than a home.
Even while you do all this, you could also make a habit of regularly keeping an eye on apartment listings, to see what comes available. Apartments are always going on and off the market and you just have to keep checking, keep looking, to find one that you would like better. It's easier to pick and choose from the stability of already having a place to live, so, you're in a good position now to check things out at your leisure until you find something you'd prefer.
I just want my own house. I'm tired of my crappy neighbors that want to live like slobs. I've lived in my condo 10yrs now and was happy the first 5yrs then the Biatch moved in and all hell broke loose and nothing has ever been the same. Then I have these a**hole neighbors in front of me that I am presently in a fued with because they are storing crap by their front door which is against the bylaws. I had to take trash out and I have to go past their place or the Biatch's place to get out. I couldn't get past their crap so I kicked it out of the way and while I was down at the dumpster, one of the asses that live there put a bunch of used food bottles by their front door. Whatever. What they don't get is I could turn them in in 2 seconds to the HOA and they would get fined. I did it to both the Biatch and my neighbor caddycorner from me and both cleaned up their acts. I don't know why I'm sitting on this and not turning them in. I guess I just have to reach my point of no return. I can't exactly throw their stuff in the dumpster because then they might be able to get me for touching private property. If I turn them in then they will know for sure it was me. That wouldn't bother me if they didn't have access to my jeep. This is why I want my own house. Damn SOB's.
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Now you're talkin'! This is what I really want too. I've had different dreams in life but right now, these days, I think my only real yearning is just for a property of my own. My own house, owned outright by me. That's all I want.
I'm sick of renting and the long list of problems inherent in it. However, at my age, my income and what's required financially, I will never be in a position to do so, not now. Just facts. It's my only wish, though, my only yearning these days, though I know I will never have it. A bit like being terribly in love with a celebrity like you know it's never gonna happen but you can dream. That's my situation, there's no realistic possibility but I yearn.
I live in an apartment. It's better for me to live in an apartment. I don't have to maintain my grounds, I don't have to pay for most repairs, and I don't have to pay things like gas and water.
I wouldn't mind living in a house--but, in the area where I live, it's prohibitively expensive most of the time. The annual tax is like $10,000 or $15,000. That's about a thousand per month right there....in addition to the mortgage! Then you have to pay for water and gas, and sundry other taxes like School Tax.
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Yes there are additional expenses to owning your own house, and I too live in a prohibitively expensive spot, but in the ideal case, if one is in a financial position that enables one to qualify for a mortgage, and to have collected an enormous downpayment, engaged the necessary lawyers or whatnot, usually along with being in that position comes the probability that one can also afford the ongoing expenses too, such as property tax, repairs etc.
I must say, I already pay my own electric, water and other bills as sadly my flat doesn't include anything. So that wouldn't be a change, aside from slightly higher ones.
Really my dream is the whole package -- that not only could I buy my own house but in tandem with that I'm able to afford what comes with it going on from there.
It's not to be, but if I could trade the problems of renting for the problems of ownership, I'd still do it in a heartbeat to be honest. I wouldn't even need a big place; I even look into "tiny house" information sometimes, as well as what they call "static caravan" situations over here. I just wish something, even a tiny thing, could be my own place.
1. My sister picked out my apartment & when I saw it online, I told her no, it was in the same neighborhood as my first apartment building, she got mad at me, cuz she wanted this apartment for me. I didn't want to live on the same street. I wasn't in my right mind, cuz of the grief of losing my mom. Weeks later, I went to look at the apartment, I really like it & said I want it, time was running out, we were selling our mother's house. Now I regret moving here.
2. The noise upstairs, I'm Very Very Sensitive to noise, I can hear almost everything, I can hear them going upstairs, I can hear their footsteps, banging & more stuff. I guess it would be OK to live here if I was working in the day, but I'm not working, so I'm here all day unless I go out. I wish I have more in my boring life.
3. The sun in my living room, I'm Sensitive to the sun too. Toooo much sun can really hurt my psoriasis & too much of it can make my stomach sick.
4. My apartment making me depress, cuz I So Strongly want to move. My apartment can make me feel very bad when I feel very bad, I want to scream so much, I feel like I'm going really crazy, I can feel like the walls are closing in on me & when I do go out, I can't get dressed fast enough.
Maybe its my Asperger that making me feel this way, cuz I don't know how to handle tough situation. I had soooo much more problems in my first two apartments. I feel better now that I'm writing a post & getting closer to my 400 posts
I wish I can move out of California or to a different city where there is less sun, I don't know if that can happen, this is sunny California
Wherever you go, Kitty . . . . there you are.
In other words, you can keep moving and you will find irritants follow you around. Because you really can't know how if your upstairs neighbor is noisy or some other issue (although you can ask a few residents before you sign a lease, something I would recommend).
If the walls are closing in around you, it probably is your mental state more than the walls actually moving any. You may be staying in too much. If the light bothers you, fix that with window coverings as another poster suggested. If the upstairs noise is constant, buy some noise-canceling headphones or cover the noise with your own that you like - playing music or t.v.
Please try some of these fixes and see if it makes things more bearable for you. Because moving is exhausting and expensive, and besides .... wherever you go .... there you are.
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OMG! I just opened the door to get my Amazon packages and the stuff the doofuses in front of me were storing by their front door is gone! You heard me - GONE! Crap. That means someone else on this floor turned them in and I bet you that they are going to think that it was me! I keep hearing a lot of banging from their condo and for me to hear that means it must be really loud. I don't ask for much in this life - I JUST WANT MY OWN FREAKING HOUSE AWAY FROM THESE NUTCASES!
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I'm happiness challenged.
Your neurodiverse (Aspie) score: 83 of 200
Your neurotypical (non-autistic) score: 153 of 200 You are very likely neurotypical
Darn, I flunked.
IvanAufulich
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Age: 61
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Location: Красноя́рский край
People wonder why I left NYC. Specifically, Rockaway Beach.
My current cost of living:
Mortgage - $0 (house completely paid for in 10 years)
Taxes (incl School Tax) $878 a year.
Gas - This year was about $1200. I buy it on contract in July for 12 months of gas to hedge the heating season price spike.
Electric - about $2000 a year.
Water - I have a well.
Trash collection - $420 a year and without the NYPD snooping for recyclables in the trash so they can stuff $125 tickets in my mailbox.
There are of course, a few drawbacks like the 15 mile drive (about the same distance as it is from The East River to the Nassau border) to the nearest supermarket, no mass transit and I'm not half a block from the ocean, but hey.
The biggest upside is that I can do pretty much, whatever I want, whenever I want.
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