Self esteem

Post Reply New Topic

Didn't wanna post it on the subject but thanks to low self esteem and isolation I am scratching my arms to the point of some mild skin breaking/bleeding.
I hate everything I turned into over my 22 years, mediocre in college, failure of a career, failure of a friend, complete and total vacant dating life.
Constantly comparing my pointless baby face to other men, I hate myself so much that I feel my father would have been better off with a different son, all the people I know and who try to support me would have been better off with someone less pessimistic and annoying. Who can make good jokes, be supportive and fun, above all not be me.

Everything I have ever done is pointless and I have failed completely.
People at my office are my friends but not my good friends, something I can't tell the difference too. As a result I am always jealous because people invite others to stuff I cannot go too. I sometimes want to kill myself but never go through with even trying. They will tell me different but I can tell no one likes me, they only are being nice. Even the girl here who went for a coffee does not like me, I have become a burden to all those who deal with me.
I don't see this getting fixed, and because I do not believe in suicide I will suffer for the next 70-80 years.

What makes you a bad person? Do you feel you deserve to be hated? Would you hate someone else who has had similar life experiences?

None of the things you have mentioned make me feel that you are a worthless person.

I have felt the same way for most of my life.

And I think it's pretty difficult to be optimistic, supportive, and fun if one is depressed.

You may be incorrect in thinking that no one likes you. The problem could be that you are missing social cues that others do like you, and so are not reciprocating. They may possibly think you don't like them, or are uninterested in becoming friends. I know now that that has happened to me in the past.

Many of the things you don't like about yourself you can work on changing if you decide you'd like to, and you may make enough progress on those things to feel happy with your life.

You're only 22 years old, man! How can your life be a failure when you're only starting out?

You're working!

You graduated college!

I think you're doing pretty well.

Forget about all this virginity crap.

Dont beat yourself up man, I had a dream of becoming a geologist but failed math which im not good at even though i lost sleep and studied for nights only to fail trying my hardest I tossed it asside after my meltdon, regardless of my expertise in science the career also requires mastering math to the points of calculus whcihs seems easy but once I got to intermediate algebra I failed no matter how hard I think and try I am never going to achive my old dream, so after years of sh***y jobs i lucked out and got an easy carreer pay job working for Google, yeah im stuck washing dishes but im happy making 15 an hour, its simple my dads proud of me no college degree but with career pay.