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I keep being really self-centred and stupid. I regret posting that thread last night now and I regret saying a few of the things I said. I feel miserable and sad. I have to go for an exam in less than 15 minutes and I haven't even bothered getting out of bed because I feel so sh*t. I don't know what the hell is wrong with me. Every time something good happens in my life, something really crap always seems to happen straight after and I go back to where I started. I wish I would stop being so selfish as well, but clearly I'm not. I feel sad all the time. And I don't understand anything.

Which thread do you regret? You made a few...

This one.
I hate my life. I'm sick of being me.

You are not alone, most of us here have been there where you are, I know it feels awful.
And don't regret about making that thread at least you are getting things off your chest and that's good, isn't it? to let it all out.

Sopho,

We all have times when we want our lives to be different. Part of surviving is knowing what you can change and living with what you can't.


You are not selfish for wanting your life to be better. You are human for that. You are young and beautiful, even if your depression sometimes blinds you to that fact. Remember that good things do happen to you, and you can learn to give them more emotional weight than the bad things.


Don't feel bad about feeling bad. You have as much right to be upset as any other human being, and regretting prior actions is a big step in learning not to to repeat your mistakes.


You did something you're not proud of. The sun came up anyway. The sky is still blue and the ocean is still wet and the people you may have offended will forget this long before you do. That's life.


It's much too important to be taken so seriously. So please smile for me.



Ikari Gendo

I was exactly where you are, nine years ago. I got the help that I needed, and I'm doing better than I was, back than. You have a lot to live for. Please don't hurt yourself.

OP: you’ll regret this thread too.

Why do I always fail when I attempt something…anything; because I always approach said something in the exact same way, without even thinking of my approach…when I fail I wonder why and ask the non-existent creator for guidance, ‘…woe is upon me, I cannot walk because I have no legs! What am I to do, how am I to live, love and learn if I cannot even step a step?' Ad infinitum.
Little do I know and/or realise that I don't need to step to succeed with my subjective life; a life that only I can define...I won't get anywhere if the only definite I see is falling before taking that first step.... There are many more ways to move forward than walking.

I (and you, you and probably you too) walk into walls in the hopes of getting through, the pain caused by this clouds our ability to see the doorway that's right before our eyes...all we focus on is the pain; it's not selfish, it's stagnant.

I wonder if you'll regret this thread too?

Danielismyname: this is a haven thread - nothing to regret about it...

Sopho: Have you ever considered you might be depresed or bipolar(going by rapid mood changes only/not saying you definately are)
I found that thread helpful, I was glad I wasn't alone I read through the whole thing and couldn't figure out the poster so they shouldn't have a reason to be embaressed if thats what you're worried about.

I send you a big hug.

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It’s part of the…uh, point. You know…infinite regret and all that due to retracing your steps wherever you go….

just don't tell people what they will rerget or not in the haven, thats the point. people post here because they feel like crap and don't need other posters adding to it. I hope I am not sounding to mean but I also hope you know what I'm trying to say.

edited: stupid spell check -_-

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Oh god... I've just got home and read through all the bollocks I've been posting. Sorry. I'll respond to all this and the other thread in a few minutes when I've eaten and drank and taken my Prozac.
Sorry again.

Ah…you’ve missed the point, which is most likely due to my inability to speak and communicate in a manner that’s lucid like. I’m mentally unable to tell anyone to do, say or think anything…. Don’t worry about it, you don’t sound mean at all.

OK, thanks for the replies to this. I don't know what's been wrong with me lately. I keep thinking things are improving and then they get worse. Even my anxiety has been getting worse today, something which I thought I had really been working on. Anyway, I know this thread was another 'feeling sorry for myself' thread. Nobody needs to point that out to me as I'm aware of that anyway. That was the main point of it. I know I'm being selfish and I'm trying to be a better person, but sometimes it all just gets messed up and everything comes out wrong.

I do regret a lot of what I've posted this morning and last night. I feel like two different people at the moment. I'm the usual me right now, but I keep turning into someone else and I don't like it. So if I've offended anyone or some across as an arrogant, selfish bastard, than I apologise, because that was not my intention.

Raph - I think there is probably something not quite right, but I don't know what. I was depressed when I was around 13/14 and this seems different but I'm not sure exactly how. Maybe it is some form of Bipolar. I hope I can work it out though. When I read about AS and SAD it all made sense, but with this I just haven't got a clue.

Yeah. Me too. I'm looking for a solution.

Three don't seem to be any decent solutions unfortunately.
I hope things get better for you though.