I realize now I was the bad friend

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On my previous post in here I was trying to figure out who was in the wrong in that friendship, I now realize that it is me. She was one of the nicest and closest friends I have had in my whole life, and because I expected too much from her and was disrespectful to her sometimes I have ruined it.
I am unfit for friends because if a girl who loved me like a sister cannot deal with me because of my nonsense and neediness, no one can. I hurt myself as punishment for what I've done.

Maybe not.

Maybe she was the one who got inconsiderate because she had a boyfriend.

You're tipping yourself from one extreme to the other.

In this case, the fault either lies with both of you, or none of you.

Haven't read your previous post, but you sound like you're engaging in black-and-white thinking, also known as splitting. It's a thought pattern where you see yourself, other people or a situation as either all good or all bad, no in-between.

In this case, it sounds like you are seeing your former friend as all good, and yourself as all bad. Which is very unlikely to be true. The vast majority of people have both good and bad traits, and a friendship can fail without either person being a 'bad friend'.

I'm also concerned about you saying you hurt yourself. What specifically have you done to hurt yourself?

Scratch my arm hard with my nails, sometimes I use a paper clip edge

Next time you feel like hurting yourself, can you try holding an ice cube in your hand, or running cold water over your arm? If you want to make yourself feel pain, that'll cause pain without damaging your skin.

If she is a friend apologising should be enough.

And you really must show an interest in her new boyfriend just ask "how are things going between you and xxx?" she might be dying to talk to you about them but isn't sure how. A friendship is give and take and if she really likes this guy you better get to like him else she will be pissed.

I've tried she doesn't wanna talk about much anymore. If I never spoke to her again she wouldn't say a word to me.

Well you tried that's all you can do. At least you can leave it knowing it's not your fault.