Bathroom , breakfast , lights , moved ???

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This is a test post , first , I've just had problems...

...At the shelter , I sleep on the first floor , in a senior/ill men's room . Otherwise males sleep on the second floor , up a two-ups staircase (no elevator) . A bathroom's next to it .
Yesterday?? , the bathroom was closed briefly , I had to go upstairs to use the bathroom . It was 6 or so few-steps walks up the stairs , interrupted by leaning against the wall resting .
They usually wake us up for breakfast but they didn't this morning or I didn't hear it , and , dressing enough , I didn't get to the cafeteria til' it'd just closed , I tried to whine to get some food but got no breakfast .
I tend to make up for missed meals with junk food .
I got a " having food in my room " write-up from staff , although I had no solid food there , just liquid bottles . I guess I could get thrown out for enough write-ups .
Then that morning , I got more pressure from the staff about wanting me to keep the lights on in my room (As I have outlined .) " because it's the rules " , I believe a staffer involved in the write-up for food .
Then , I found out the bathroom was broken again .

...I went up to the second-floor bathroom again , again , stop-starting up/down the stairs (like my walking huphill to the library) ~ I thought afterward , " I don't know what I do if I have to go up the stairs all the time to go to the bathroom " .
Let's remember , the congestive heart failure & renal failure that has me " maybe " going to die in less than a year , plus my amputated toes , other stuff like my past pneumonia...Then , the shelter staff said someone needed the bed , and I would be moved upstairs .
I said" You might as well throw me out if you are going to do that " , and pointed out my medical problems .
They said they might " two-day transfer me " to the previous shelter , calling the HOT team ~ It up in the air , I left to do this . I really have to egt new pants and underwear , with what I have pretty used up/unwearable as I have outlined before , I have put it off for a number of days ~ I don't know what I will face upon my return there .
My bit of shirts needing washing and my pills and inhaler and books I left there ~ Well , who knows what'll happen to them ?
I also have lost somehow the secondary/lesser glasses I had (not the staff-stolen ones from last week , even another pair) and have to replace them ...

This sounds sad. Are you okay?

You have heart problems and those other issues you listed? If so, I'm so sorry to hear that. I feel for you. I don't have heart problems (yet) but my mother does, well, she has vasculitus among other things.

I'm also really sad to hear you might not be alive for another year, let's hope that's not true.

Please hang in there.

...Thank you .
It's renal (kidney) failure and congestive heart failure described as what could kill me , IIRC (I'm trying to get the full diagnosis .) Adima (Sp??) , too , and in the past I've had pneumonia and staph infection .
If I could get more rest - and better/more care , especially , perhaps I could get better ~ I am getting a little medical (Basically just pills at this point) + the " you can sleep more " - but not ENOUGH shelter .
I do have Medicare/Medical , so , with help lining things up , I could r eceive more medical ~ If I got involved in something that made me feel better and more energetic , too
I'll post more , about how I feel to-day , below , let me get this one up now ! !!

Those stories really make me feel so frustrated that I can't do anything. If it was in my area, I would try to do something. I can't stand that lack of humanity and consideration for the people who need help.

I got very angry today when a professor said that people with autism have poor empathy. Well, I can imagine what it would be like if every step would be an effort for me (plus aditional emotional conditions). As if I had to go climbing to the toilet instead of walking. I see everyday so many people that don't seem to be able to do imagine how the other person feel (specially, the worst case: primary school teachers). Then I ask myself who is the one with the empathy problem here.

Anyway, today I feel very angry against the many injustices that I've seen today. I just wanted to say that I can't help, but we can provide you company here. Take care, I hope things start going better for you.

...In daytime I was able to sneak into the bathroom and wash , but the toilet's been actually physically removed from its place & put in the shower ! !!
I think it's possible that going up the stairs yesterday made me tired-er , so much so I slept longer and couldn't get to the library computer .
Today I was , again , up much of the night and sleeping in the moring/early afternoon . I can't read , let alone listen/do anything else during the night-time period . I get a woozy feeling after being in the shelter a while I don't know if it's toxins or not seeing outdoor light for two long...I get woozy/"under the weather " .
I REALLY do have this muscle/stomach pain on me , I can barely sit down on my ed to rad ~ Can't , really , ther'es much pain anyhow .
I head little from my " keeper/s " at the HOT Team . I guess if " I have a bed " ...

...It was closed last night , but the bathroom was open again this morning .
I am really tired again , when I walked too the library again , perhaps I was less fatigued than I was at my worst ~ Which doesn't mean I wasn't frequently stopping for rest against a wall or a meter , as always , once agaian getting a " Do you need any help ? " offer from a bystander ~ Not that they/a doctor can provide .
I don't know that I have made my day-to-day living situation clear enough ~ These at best two one-hour slots at the Main Library (not continuous two hours , maybe one hour , after which it ends , everything is disconnected and for a second hour you must start everything all over again) are pretty much everything there is for me ~ At the shelter , I'm in a shared room , one of the people there endlessly acting hateful towards me - I do not see TV there . I do not see radio .
I have some reading matter , but , especially when my back pain is bad (It's been better to-day) , it's hard to concentrate ~ and , I can only sit on the bed or sit down .
Some other people have smartphones which work , but , even when I had my now stolen crappy tablet , I did not , no WiFi there for me (and thecrappy tablet had mysteriously frozen even when it got withinn range of some)
~ And , as I said , I am often stuck , unable to sleep , not allowed to read either there or elsewhere , ALL NIGHT , WHILE MY LIFE TICKS AWAY !
The Hot Team " take care of me " people really seem to be giving little attention to my medical case .....................