09 Jun 2016, 5:49 pm
My " good " pair of glasses appear to have become lost - fallen out of my sports jacket's pocket , I guess 
I do have others , but these are the " goods " ~ cost about 20 dollars (I haven't had prescription glasses since ~ GW Bush's first term ?) .
That jacket itself is falling apart 
. I really am super ultra large and second-hand , or new either , clothes tend to rather rarely be in my size .
This morning , after " getting up " , I did feel at least a lesser version of that dazzled-ness/too much sun in my eyes , and , I REALLY did feel that grogginess.druggedness that I've written about , both occuring in my room . When the window was mostly closed , the grogginess really came up on me ~ Carbon monoxide ? Mercury ? Lead ? ~ Opened , it was less , but I was halfway wanting to sleep - Plus , I get even from the convoluted twisting I have to do to dress myself , etc. , and feel I have to lie down some more ~ Look , i have spoken about this in previous posts , remember ?
I didn't get out of the place til' almost 1 PM , and that meant I'd have to likely just-barely make the noon feed with that whole s**t of them making me walk my crippled self around and back " because that's the rules " so , since I couldn't approach it from another angle , I bought some cheap " Oriental Resturanunt " food .
I did want to get a cheap clock/watch of some sort , but the cheapest I looked for were basically non-workable to my big , clumsy , hands ~ Also , I had looked at a ' dollar store " and saw a cheap radio , didn't buy , but Tuesday I wanted to hear the primary coverage and thought " Maybe such a thing would pick up stations in my building " ~ But , the dollar store no longer had it byu then .
At a Walgreens' , I thought of buying this cube battery-operated clock and radio , I thought it could operate entirely with batteries (I told you that I , effectively , have no plugs in the room) , though that would be expensive ~ But , the radio didn't work on batteries . It was pretty expensive .
You used to could get a cheap radio/box but I'm technologically outmoded/left behind now .
Of course I can't get a smartphone ~ I don't know how to pack it and no one will show me how to ! !! !! !! and the tablets I bought are among the hundreds and hundreds of dollars of stuff I've had taken from me .
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
10 Jun 2016, 4:35 pm
...I didn't get out til' about 11:30 AM , too late to get to the Computer Lab before they closed , and leaving me with the prospect of having to walk past the subway with my hobbled body AGAIN , so I spent money on canned food at the dollar store instead , and ate some , in U.N. plaza with the sun shinig on me .
I have been thinking to say that , San Francisco is a city of ghosts for me now ~ Ghosts of when I was younger and in better health and had more money and could at least kid myself that I'd , sometimes anyway , go to " cool things " ~ Now , those cool things are less and less , and they're not so much something that I relate to and it's even less likely I can go .
Now , I was kind of happy inn the sun in UN Plaza , but that's kind of a " homeless " thing isn't it ? ~ Perhaps I shouldn't have spent money on the canned food , thjo ~ I am telling myself I'll wash my few clothes but I say also I'll buy some percussion/" toy " musical instruments and busk , to get some money ~ It's that or flat-out beg .
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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!
