I feel like I'm in a kind of emotional bathroom shower... When I'm alone, it's cold. It is initially restful but I quickly become miserable and frozen (depressed.)
Then I turn the tap, just a fraction of a millimetre, turn up the heat, interact socially in the smallest way, and immediately I feel like I'm being boiled alive and in complete agony.
There's no safe place in between. Talking to people is excruciating and being alone is torture.
