Constantly ruminating about ex co-workers

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I quit my job a few months back; a place I worked at for five years to pursue post-secondary education. I don't regret this decision at all. I had alot of problems with my co-workers where I feel they picked up that I was different (I never revealed an psychological diagnose to them) and gave me a hard time. I find I ruminate about my work experience on a daily basis (even though I no longer work there) and have ruminated about this place for a few years now, day in and day out. I wish I could just forget about my former place of work and past co-workers, as there are many things I wish I could remember but can't. This is extremely depressing that I also ruminate about this and can't get away from these thoughts.

What sort of nursing did you do?

Were you in a nurse in a psychiatric capacity?

No, no, I am just started school in September to become a nurse.

Do you want to be a psychiatric nurse?

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Yup, right with you there. Perhaps coming up with a strategy like mine, but tailored to your own circumstances, might be helpful? I think you've got to address the behaviour, rather than the subject matter. Find ways to curb the obsessive repetition. It is uncomfortable having these same thoughts "at you" all the time. If there's something in that situation that you must resolve in order to get it out of your head then by all means, try doing that. It could actually work if that's the problem, classic "unfinished business."
But I know from my repeats that it's the behaviour, not the topic. I used to repeat on other things, then I resolved those issues, and instead of stopping it I just started to repeat on another problem. Finding out which issue is your issue could also help.

Sorry but what exactly do you mean by behaviour?

Not necessarily. I am only studying to become an nurse. I used to work as a sort-of manager in a food court location at a university. Worked there for five years.

That's pretty good. I've never been a manager anywhere. I'm just a clerk. No promotion in 37 years.

Well, a behaviour in the sense of psychology generally means a way a person thinks or acts, that may be symptomatic of a problem. It's like a pattern, usually repetitious and enacted in response to certain stimuli.
In the example of me in the link above - the process of me constantly obsessing about the same issues (apparently 10, when I reviewed them) and then repeating them over and over would be an obsessive behaviour. It's thinking in a certain way, which leads to acting a certain way, which is detrimental to me.
You constantly obsessing about your co-workers of several years ago and being unable to let that go, and apparently that being in whatever intensity distressing to you, may be considered to be a similar behaviour.
My idea was not to keep trying to fix the problems themselves, as I observed that when a problem was resolved, that behaviour would just continue, and I would start repeating on something else.
So, the problems themselves aren't actually the problem. The way I (and possibly you) deal with them is.
Does that make much sense?

I think so. So should I just roll with the thoughts, and just accept that I will have them a part of my psyche until hopeful one day they go away?

That's pretty much exactly the opposite of what I wrote.
The strategy I linked above was my attempt at stopping the constant recycling of thoughts, not just accepting and indulging them.

Oh, sorry. I read through your post and thought i understood it. Guess I didn't.