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I'm just really struggling at the moment I've moved to a new flat and a new university in a massive city and I'm overwhelmed. I'm further away from my mum than I've ever been before and she helps me out alot.

I used to live with 5 friends but in new place I don't know anyone, I don't know the area, I can't even drive about esily cause the roads are so complicated.

Im having trouble with disability support and applying for my dsa which is stressing me out. Im struggling to pay the rent.

I'm also arguing with my fiancee alot which is really upsetting me.

I wish I could go back on my fluxotine but they make me stupid and at the moment I can't risk trying new antidepressants because I need my brain to think.

Everything is becoming overwhelming

((((HUGS)))

I'm sorry to hear how many things you're having to deal with; all of that is really overwhelming, it's all a lot to deal with all at the same time. I totally get how you're struggling to cope.

Would it help to take planned walks in your new city with a view to observing the roadways and signs, almost like a series of pedestrian-based "dry runs" for driving there?

It's very mindblowing to have to just start driving in a new city with more complicated roads than before, I experienced that also. Sometimes it can ease you into learning the roads by being a pedestrian first, or even a cyclist keeping to the side, if you happen to have a bicycle or can borrow one.

Even going on Google Streetview and "driving" yourself down the streets by clicking along the images might be able to help you get more familiar with how to drive them more comfortably.

I hope you feel better as time goes on; it's never easy to be in a completely new place.

Google street-viewing yourself around is a good idea, I do that sometimes when I get stressed about a new location or a journey. Do you have to drive around? A walk at an appropriate time of day might help, especially if you can get your fiancee to accompany you. I would have suggested an evening or night-time walk because the world will be quieter then, but that might not feel safe if you've seen thieves running about. Could you cycle around maybe?

You could also phone your mum if you haven't already, as it may help you calm down or let out some of your emotional energy. I never phoned my mum when I was away at uni but I always wanted to, I missed her but I didn't want her to know I was struggling .

What is the support like at your university? If you are able to reach out they might be able to help you with stabilising your finances and sorting out your DSA. Seeing a university counsellor/therapist might help too if you don't already have therapy; sometimes you just need to voice your problems in a neutral environment away from loved ones. I hope you feel better soon, I've been in this position and it is hell.

Hugs
Sorry all that is happening to you

Sounds like your path has taken you to a place you don't want to be. I'm just going to list back to you what is in your op:

moved to a new city
started school
engaged
without support (Mom)
financial uncertainty

Girl, this is a lot! Even without the driving issues. When I am feeling overwhelmed I try to rid myself of the things that are causing me stress. I have to, if I don't I'll breakdown. The things that are causing you stress are pretty significant especially arguing with your fiance. Is he experiencing similar stress to you?

Yep...Hugs from me, too!

It sucks now....but, if he continues to progress, things will come together.

You can't do everything at once.
I suggest breaking it down, and setting reasonable goals as to what you can do each day.

For instance, you might start by figuring out how to get to the grocery store.
Next would be to actually visit the store and figure out where the important stuff is located.
Another task would be figuring out payment options, and perhaps signing up for a discount card.

Going there for the first time with a long shopping list is too much to do all at once.

Im sorry your going through an overwhelming time! ... I cant really offer too much more as what i was going to mention has been expressed here already... But if you can find a quiet peace of countryside near a river or similar away from people just to find a place you can go to chill! Steps at a time, it gets very very overwhelming when soo much changes instantly... I think the most important possible first step is to find a safe place for yourself to recharge... Either via google, or online search for your area. Maybe write down all the things that are making you overwhelmed as at least with this you will be able to give you a visual representation of your triggers rather than your senses being hit from every angle causing a closedown/meltdown. Once you have your list of sensory difficulties, try to deal with each one at a time... I know there are going to be times where you will have to maybe face a number of changes instantly and will cause overwhelm, but at least with a list of what is causing these overwhelms it can be narrowed down visually to understand what the triggers are for your new surroundings

I think you may really benefit by doing some regular meditation, yoga, or other mind-body practice. But in the short run, when I feel overwhelmed I often just do some slow, controlled breathing.

I'm really sorry you are having a hard time, and I hope things improve for you soon.