I should have done it

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I could potentially be facing criminal charges within weeks if not days for something I've done back in January while intoxicated that I had no way of knowing would be passed into law midyear in my state. I can't afford to go to prison for any amount of time, I will not survive, never mind losing my job. I wouldn't care about probation or having to pay fees but apparently it is considered a class b felony here and from what I'm reading, if it's all correct and up to date, has a minimum sentence of 2 years? And a statute of limitations for up to 6 years. Maybe, hopefully I am wrong. The person accusing me lives in Massachusetts and a website involved is based in Chicago so I don't know if that will complicate anything.

I had a chance to try to kill myself. Well not that it was my first time, having tried drinking bleach or mixing chemicals to make gas or strangling myself, obviously never successful. However I may have found a more reliable source at least, that tells me in some cases drop hanging has been known to be pretty quick and has a higher success rate if done right. Meant to pull with enough force to snap part of the brain connecting to the spine if I'm recalling right, and well, apparently the body dies sometime after but if I'm effectively a braindead vegetable then who cares. Have pretty long cables and according to them 5 feet is a long enough drop at 200+ pounds, but I'm still worried with my weight it would not have held. So I may have had enough time over the weekend when it is mostly just me in the back of where I work but I opted not to...now they've said they'd press charges on thursday and I can't get a moment alone so effectively I'm screwed.

I hate that this is where I am a quarter of my way through life. Pretty much nothing good to show for it. People guilt me out of it, and yet none seem to care when all is fine, and when I'm played for a fool and decide to stand up for myself suddenly they are a victim and I'm a criminal due to one sided laws. Life is so backwards, what is the point in trying when your birth was a mistake.

I'm sorry that you're going through a hard time. I've been dealing with mental issues off and on for more than a decade. They tried various medicines to help me with my depression and other mental issues, but none of them worked. In the end I had to go through shock treatment, and that was the only thing that really helped my depression. Thankfully the treatment is a lot less barbaric than it used to be. I've had memory problems from the treatment but I'd rather have those than feel like s**t all of the time. You just need to keep searching until you find the thing that helps you. Also I hope that you don't have to go to jail and I'll pray for you. And do you have a lawyer? Or will the court appoint one to you?

So was it not a law when you did it, or were you not aware that it was a law at the time?


If this is a first offence, they could give you a deal. Obviously, ignorance of the law is no excuse, so don't even bother with that one.

Care to share the details?

If it wasn't a law in January, you shouldn't be charged with it.

You should speak with a criminal lawyer before jumping to conclusions that you're going to be prosecuted. Absolutely do not talk about whatever happened to anyone except a lawyer and certainly not to police or investigators.

I know quite a bit about the criminal justice system. I'm sure you're very worried, but without a criminal record do not assume you'll get jail time for a first offense as opposed to probation or community service.

Don't hesitate to PM me if you have any questions, and please don't do anything to harm yourself over this situation.

Thanks all for answering. I won't be going into significant details unless through PM and even then I may want to avoid that considering what all could be seen as evidense. Makes it harder to seek advice but I'm sure people online aren't the recommended route.

From what I've read, in NH at least, this law had not been put into effect until late July of this year. However I don't know whether it is amended from a different law or if there were any similar laws in place beforehand. That and I don't know whether laws from Massachusetts would effect me or not. Lastly the accusers age has come into consideration, of which I know they are lying about but evidence being mostly through communication via email or text is wishy washy, having deleted all past conversations myself not having known they would try to charge me with this. In any case their age at the time of the incident and years prior to that seems to me at least it could mean a big difference in how things turn out.

I work in the criminal justice system, too.

If a law was enacted in July, and you did the deed in January (provided that there wasn't a law which covered what you did in January), then you shouldn't be prosecuted for something which apparently wasn't a law in January.

You can PM me, if you want. But I think this just might be a very simple matter.

After doing some more research you should only try ECT as a last resort. First off, make sure that they give you anesthesia because some countries do ECT without anesthesia and then you have a seizure and your body thrashes around and you can break some bones. It has saved people's lives, including mine, but it has also caused severe memory problems and other problems with some people. I met a person who couldn't remember anything of her childhood after having it. However if you are severely depressed and you feel like killing yourself and medicine and therapy and everything else has failed then you might want to consider it. Just talk to a doctor about it and its potential side effects and if you should try it.