25 Oct 2016, 2:49 pm
From reading life hack sites. Success articles/books/youtube videos! Motivational videos! To play games and enjoy them OR NOT? SSI disability YES hopefully fixed but still trying to wrap my head around "a job" so after disability this issue of losing it doesn't come up a 2nd time. (They give you NO WARNING! 1 LAST CHECK THEN NOTHING!) NO TIME TO GET ON YOUR FEET! Learn what a job is or try your hand at Part time! etc. With medical supplies/pills etc. I'd need full-time which I'm not mentally ready for. 
So a lot of soul searching was wondering if others felt the same way at times. I know I don't want age 30 onward to be 18-30 again. New games system every 4-6 years (look another one in 4-6 years) blow money on games 24/7 without expanding your horizons! TRYING a job etc.
So a lot of soul searching for me right now this past year.
