Captain Log Stardate 11/25/2016 - Modernity - Beyonce music, rules and regs, and cucks on TV. I am assaulted by memes and feel trapped in an alternate dimension, similar to the Twilight Zone.
In the olden days, when you were feeling blue, your buddy would buy you a beer, sit you down and help you pick up some chicks, and you would get laid. Nowadays, when you are feeling sexually frustrated or depressed, you get random post-cards in the mail from fat chicks you don't even know, talking about how painting a wall black must have accentuated colors for people to feel at home. It's what is this s**t, how does talking about paint on the wall help me at all?
My mind is continually assaulted and bombarded by the demons of modernity. Even in my dreams, there is a general feeling of no hope, that I will always be alone and unhappy. Even in my dreams. I feel like an animal trapped in a cage. All of my animal needs are spat on and shamed by modernity. It's like, if I want to punch someone if the face for being rude to me, modernity says "No", I can't do that, calls me a caveman and shames me. It's like, if there is a hot girl in a bikini I want to have sex with, modernity says "No", I can't do that, calls me a caveman and shames me. It's like, if I don't want a dick and balls that I'm not even allowed to use, and want a sex-change, modernity says "No", I can't do that, calls me a queer and shames me. And if that is not enough, not only do they force me into a mental cage of total misery, but if I try to leave this mental cage they force on me, they put me in a literal cage. It's like, back in the olden days, 2000 years ago, if I said I wanted to be a girl, they would have cut off my balls, dolled me up, and made me a girl, just like the Native Americans. Nowadays, you aren't allowed to be a girl, just a total cuckman noone wants. Nowadays you are not even allowed to be angry at women, even though they all have it better than you do. When a woman breaks your heart, or lies to you, you are not even allowed to be verbally angry, and when she is cruel and blocks you they support her and take her side. It is so fucktarded, its like you are an animal trapped in a cage, shamed for any natural instincts you have. Modernity is anti-nature anti-instinct, it is literally a nunnery. It's like only the most degenerate, most cowardly specimens are allowed to reproduce or have fun.
Now I see the funny side. I look around at other transsexuals, and what a joke. We are a joke. Like me. We are nothing but a bunch of jokes. They are femboys wearing wigs. And we are supposed to take them seriously. Why so serious? Now I see the funny side. I mean, don't get me wrong, if I f****d one in the butthole I would enjoy it and it would feel more like f*****g a girl than a boy, but at the same time, society is so f****d and feminized its hilarious. There is nothing serious about transsexuals, I find the whole thing downright hilarious. Transsexuals are all victims of modernities feminization. But I think the male ape is downright disgusting, if anything, transsexuals are a blessing because, men are like primitive apes, they need some flash and glamour in their lives.
Each day I struggle to go on. Each day I try to find purpose. But the boot of modernity keeps me down.
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I am mad.
25 Nov 2016, 8:00 am
