The title aptly sums up my situation, but if I were to assume the role of the reader, I think I'd be hungry for more details after reading it, so I'll extend you that courtesy.
I'm 20 years old, living with my mum,basically unemployed and have no idea what I want to do with my life.
I've never had a car in my family, so I haven't been able to learn how to drive, and I don't think driving is a skill that would come naturally to me.
I'm not as slim as I wish I was, and that's likely due to my poor eating habits and lack of exercise as of late. I'm a fussy eater and a fast eater, on top of which, I have minimal kitchen skills. The fact that I'm home all day and often stoned means I tend to eat a lot, and I've noticed myself gain weight.
My love-life is non-existent, and I'm starting to reach an age where career and stability are key in relationships. I come to the table with neither. I rarely use tinder, and when I do get so bored that I decide to, I go through swiping matches knowing that I'm not going to get any (and I'm generally right). Even if I did manage to meet the perfect person right now, I don't feel like I could last in a relationship with my low self-esteem and insecurities, and I feel that anyone who was interested in my online profile would be disappointed when they met me in real life.
When I'm at home, I tend to use any form of media I can find to distract myself from my reality. I hate not having a plan for the future, but I can't see how I can make a plan when I don't even know what I want to do.
I hate feeling perpetually behind people my age in most respects. Sometimes I wonder if my life is even worth living.
23 Dec 2016, 11:22 am
