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rideforever
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15 May 2007, 3:12 pm

I saw my therapist the other day, I told him I felt I was falling apart ... he said well you know that's what we are working towards, falling apart.

I can feel the edge of it and it's pretty scarry. I wonder whether one weekend I should just try to do it, just let go, to hell with it and fall apart. See where I end up. Doesn't feel like there's much point doing anything before that happens.

Met a girl the other day : I really liked her, she didn't seem to like me. Story of my life.

I would like my life to get going, maybe I should try to fall apart sooner rather than later, instead of avoiding it. Maybe that's what it will take to get anywhere.

(Thanks for listening.)



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15 May 2007, 5:03 pm

rideforever wrote:
I saw my therapist the other day, I told him I felt I was falling apart ... he said well you know that's what we are working towards, falling apart.

I can feel the edge of it and it's pretty scarry. I wonder whether one weekend I should just try to do it, just let go, to hell with it and fall apart. See where I end up. Doesn't feel like there's much point doing anything before that happens.

Met a girl the other day : I really liked her, she didn't seem to like me. Story of my life.

I would like my life to get going, maybe I should try to fall apart sooner rather than later, instead of avoiding it. Maybe that's what it will take to get anywhere.

(Thanks for listening.)


Falling apart can actually be a good thing. Everyone does it, and after you're done, you can start fresh.


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15 May 2007, 5:14 pm

I hope things improve with you soon!


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15 May 2007, 5:21 pm

that sounds intense...I don't know your situation...but I hope it leads to a positive outcome...
I think I went through something like that...a breakdown...It has left me shaky, but funny, I did feel something like a new strength and hope welling up inside me...I hope you emerge a stronger and healthier being, more true to yourself and beautiful...



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16 May 2007, 9:52 pm

I know how it feels to know you are about to fall apart. I knew for a while that technically I am on the second to last stage for a burnout, but I just kept going. And a while ago, I realized that we are all working towards our own destruction. Not literally, but if you think about it, when there is a need or a problem or something to be done, you make your job to do it, but if you think about it slowly you are inching towards the point where you are not needed anymore. Its like a cycle, and I know just about every year I fall apart and then I am able to try to put things together again. Like the phoenix.

So if you do fall apart in a way its kind of nice to just let go and deal with the aftermath later, but for now you deserve a bit of freedom after you have worked so hard to keep it together for so long.