I wish I could go back in time, but I can't. That probably why I'm calling my cat, Piper, Jenny, my first cat, at least Jenny didn't bite me, she bitten me once when she was pregnant & sometimes when I gave her medicine. I'm trying so hard to change my life, but I keep getting roadblocks, I'm soooo tired of getting setbacks & doing stuff over & over again, my body gets tired & I get tired mentally & emotionally. I don't know if I really want to die, I don't think about dying alot, when I'm really really upset , I think about dying. Maybe I need mental help, I want to go to a therapist, but I don't know how on my own. I finally made a doctor appointment for a physical, blood work & medicine for my cough, but it seems like my cough is getting better, when I get coughs in the past, my coughs usually last a few months.
Why did I stopped understanding sooo much? I want to learn & understand what I'm reading, but if I try hard to understand, it hurts my head, it tooooo much to read. My city has alot of homeless people, there was an article about the homeless & other things, I didn't understand everything, I felt stupid, I started to cry & then later I had an anxiety attack. I wish my mom was here, I feel sooo stupid without her.
I read Asperger can get worse with age.
01 Feb 2017, 6:14 pm
