Depression

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I have depression, it's drepressing living here, I depress about my life, sometimes I hate living here, nobody here understand me. I don't know if there any Asperger people living near me. I feel soooooo alone, it's sooo hard. My family don't care to learn about my Asperger, my grandmother is trying to understand me my sister must think too highly of herself to think she knows almost everything about me. It's very hard to go on with life, I'm having trouble doing stuff everyday. I feel like nobody cares. I can't do anything right. I might of well die, I'm sooooo tired. I don't think I'm worth living.

I feel the same. I'm stressed at work and can't cope. But I can't cope with looking for a new job either, due to social anxiety. The world scares me sometimes, to be honest. All employers look for is people with the right social skills. I'm not saying I have poor social skills, but I still feel socially limited.

Also I am quite comfortable with my lifestyle, but society makes me feel guilty and depressed with my choice. I have a driver's license but I don't have a car because I enjoy getting buses, plus I can't afford to run a car on my wages. But all my peers are driving around in cars and it makes me feel quite hopeless at times.
I seem to compare myself to my peers, which doesn't do me any good. But I can't stop. I feel like they are superior to me, or I feel like they are all in a big bubble and I'm on the outside looking in, watching them have the energy to work full-time, drive about confidently in their cars, stay up late, go out to bars, and so on. And here's me, living the life of a 60-year-old; getting easily tired and going to bed early, only emotionally able to work part-time, scared to drive, find going out to bars every week-end boring and stupid, and I feel happy getting buses.

Why the f**k am I feeling so depressed?