Not Knowing

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I can attach a very strong value to the validity of something. How certain I can know something is something I know usually. Some things are more uncertain than others, like other people. I know that I don't know what other people think. Most social skills seem to me like getting around that. I can't assume I know everything that goes into how another person behaves.

Having everyhing well ordered and predictable is useful with being able to get on with my life, but I can get hung up on things and can't move on from them. I don't forget anything really important. I like knowing whats going on, how things went wrong. I can't just go back and ask people about things that happened years ago. I dwell. I want things to be simple. Its no excuse for behaving badly. Its just easier to deal with things when people are willing to talk. Without that, don't ask me for anything. You do not exist to me. Ignoring someone can only go so far. Just wanted to say something. People can go seperate ways, and I am fine with that.

Life is like a blanket times 100,000,000. We're each a tiny strand. We can move and interweave with the ones that we want. In the end, it's our choice.