Want to forget how it was to have friends

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Hi. Before I didn't mind not having any friends to hang out with, then I got friends, then I lost them. So now I feel lonely. Can I ever get back to that state of mind when I didn't care?

Just because we are autistic doesn't mean we aren't human.

We want friends, we want people who like us, identify with us.

I feel like if we lose this desire, that there will exist a vast Emptiness.

Hopefully you will make new, and better, friends soon.

It is a sad paradox that many of us on the spectrum crave friendship and closeness with others, yet at the same time isolate ourselves and push people away.

Maybe there are some people on this forum or just in an online (or even pen-pal) capacity who you can form a close bond with. They may not be able to hang out with you physically but you can chat to them in the same way you would with a friend.

That may help to fill a void of wanting someone to be around. In time, you'll probably find some physical friends again. In the meantime, do what you can to keep your mind busy and positive.

If you really would just rather friends in real life and aren't interested in online or pen-pal friends, then how I'd suggest taking your mind off it is to focus on things where you don't need anyone else. E.g. your work or your study or some artwork you're doing or even just enjoying your favourite book or movie. Focus on the one-on-one time with yourself in positive activities and you'll probably spend much less time feeling lonely.

Thank you for answering!

I think I can empathise with this:

before I had any close friends, I felt content
then I got to know the best friends I've ever had, it felt awesome
then to lose those friends, life sucks

It's like you can't go back to feeling content about it - now you want more of out life; you don't want to go backwards - so you gotta strive to do better and make new better friends (even though this is easier said than done and I haven't accomplished this yet (I might make some new friends in a few months when I restart at a different university, hopes up ))

Don't go down that path. Trust me, my attempts at coping with isolation have failed miserably, and turned me into a soulless husk of a person.

If there's any way you can make new friends, do so. Isolation really messes you up.

Loss is never easy. Even losing bad relationships is hard on the heart.

I agree with the advice of staying busy and positive. Easier said than done. I agree isolation will anyone up, and I hope you make some friends soon.

I can't even get along with my brother's, let alone my relatives. Why the hell do I want friends, especially when they screw me over?

Thank you everybody. I'm going to university soon too, so hope it gets better. I've already been through the soulless husk stage. I agree, it's a weird feeling. I want to have someone to be with, but it always ends up badly